Possible bipolar please help
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I think I may have bipolar but I'm not 100% sure. Years ago I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome. But I rarely have issues talking to anyone anymore, it's got a lot better. I'm severely depressed but other times out of no where I'll have bursts of energy and I have to wind someone up untill they bite back. I get a kick out of it and won't stop my mother calls me an ****hole. Lol which I am when like that. But I can't control myself I'm highly up and then down, I've been to see the doctor a few days ago and he's referring me somewhere and won't give me medication untill I'm examined. He said doesn't sound like aspergers or ADHD which I thought it may well be. He said bipolar. But I'm one for being assessed and then thinking this person has only known me like an hour, how on earth do they know? Anyone could walk in and be diagnosed. Also diagnosed wrongly. Like I think I have been diagnosed wrongly. Any insite in this anyone? I'd really appreciate it. It's kinda ruining my life and friendships ect. Ps. I cannot drink alcohol what so ever. May have a part to play in this?
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jmcg2014 Jay182
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Doesn't sound like bipolar, and diagnosing yourself is a terrible idea. If you want to be assessed then you need to see a psychiatrist, a gp can't diagnose it, but from what you've said it doesn't sound like it
Jay182 jmcg2014
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I'm fully aware a gp can't diagnose someone. I'm still on the list to be seen by a psychiatrist. Years ago I seen a psychiatrist and they came back with "Aspergers" Well things have changed. I used to have a real issue with people being able to socialise, but it's got a whole lot better. While I've been waiting I do type into google and bipolar matches most of my symptoms I haven't mentioned hardly any in my post.
BraunWynn Jay182
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If your referral is to a psychiatrist, this will be very helpful for you to provide you with some answers and a treatment plan.
Would it be possible for you to try to redirect your negative patterns when you become aware of what your doing? Possibly by removing yourself from the room and go for walk or work on a hobby.
When I am struggling, I really try to redirect my negative thoughts and actions through a diversion by going for a walk, texting a friend, cook, and watch movies.
My doctor told me, Move a muscle; change a thought. I am diagnosed bipolar one and truly need healthy diversion techniques, otherwise my emotional roller coaster ride derails.
The doctor's referral is an excellent step. Take care of yourself.
Jay182 BraunWynn
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Hi there, yes it's to a psychiatrist, I seen one many years ago and they came back with "Aspergers syndrome" for years me and others have said it isn't that. Not totally not that, but there's more to it than that. I could just have social awkwardness symptoms which is a trait of that disorder but 1 trait. So I don't understand the diagnoses I have a lot more symptoms of others things I've researched such as bipolar, schizophrenia, depression not so much, withdrawn from society possible. Not agreeing with society? There's a lot rattling around in my head which will be explained to the guy I'm waiting to see. When unhappy thoughts come to mind, I do try and think of something happy where I am happy, or once was. And it's so great I have this weird feeling of something called "happiness" lol. It sounds so stupid but it's an amazing feeling, and makes me think others feel this almost all of the time no wonder I feel like s**t. I feel down most of the time and for that split second I feel happiness it's great. I'm never happy. Sucks. Tried a cocktail of different pills through the years, I exercise a lot people say that releases happy hormones, but not in my case nothing can really trigger it, it can just happen. That move a muscle change a thought sounds very helpful thanks for that because I have recently found myself doing things I never would have just silly little things and it has helped mould me. I like to have ruteen also but I'm not perfect. It's hard to say how I truly feel but I can say I'm down 80% of the time which is high and I don't agree with this world at all. I can be totally down then HIGHLY up, when I'm high I call it my evil side im totally bonkers I have to go out and run, or go out on my bike and cycle for miles on end I have so much energy. I find myself running down the road laughing to myself like I'm a mad man, but to me it's really great. I love the feeling of feeling mad it's a free feeling an adrenaline rush purely within me, I haven't taken drugs or anything and I feel high off life I truly love that, but I can't calm down sometimes if I want to sleep I cannot. When I'm like that only, otherwise my sleep is fine. Just trying to figure out what's going on and possibly level my head out, I just don't want to be down any longer, because when I'm happy it reminds me what life can be. Then I'm sad all over again down as down can be I can't go any lower, so I want a fix, but I know it maybe can't be fixed and I accept that, I have to. I believe a psychiatrist is trained and specialises in these things, but I do believe it's not 100% accurate diagnoses which annoys me because he isn't God. I may come across as sounding funny, but in my head it makes sense. Thanks for your reply anyway mate and sorry for the long paragraph, it's one of my high nights.
Introvert1190 Jay182
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Bipolar is having severe mood swings, each swing lasting a week or more. Mania or Hypermania includes (but not limited to) giddiness, spending money you don't have, inability to sleep, rarely or not eating, hallucinations, fidgety movement, fast and spararic talking, taking unnecessary risks (like speeding in the car), more likely to use drugs, starting projects but never finishing, difficulty concentrating.. etc etc. Depression is extreme sadness, lethargia, can't sleep or sleep too much, can't eat or eat too much, loss of interest, lack of personal hygiene, unmotivated. Etc etc.. No one is the same so while some of these apply to people some may not.. But the main thing is that each swing lasts a week or more
Jay182 Introvert1190
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Nearly everything you've said for bipolar and depression I can relate to.
BraunWynn Jay182
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Hi Jay,
I thought I would say hello and I read your recent posts. Please let me share a wee bit of info regarding my recent diagnosis, (three years now). Prior to this diagnosis, I literally saw six different psychatrists in my old home town and the best they could come up with was PTSD. And prescribed counselling
. Fastforward to my old age of 47 and residing thousands of miles away from the previous homestead. Finally, after another eposiode, the head of psychiatry diagnosed with Bipolar one, PTSD, and anxiety. He gave me an answer and we started on a long journey of medication trial and error. Until recently, three years after my diagnosis; finally found one that is holding.
I am trying to convey to you that keep on trying different psychatrists, until you have at least three - five doctor's reaching similar diagnosis'.
Imagine since I was 16-47 yrs of age being misdiagnosed and leaving a train wreck of failed EVERYTHING behind because I am a severe Bipolar 1. I can identify with you in some of the aspects of your illness you shared.
An acquaintance has the same diagnosis like you. And he shared his challenges with me. I am an introvert primarily and struggle greatly and even have to encourage myself to get out the door. Huge social anixety. Please let me know how your keeping and this Canadian is cheering you on.
Jay182 BraunWynn
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Hi im sorry to hear you have bipolar, i wouldn’t wish it on anyone, but it’s good you finally know what it is and atleast are able to manage it? I finally seen a psychiatrist the other day, I’ve been diagnosed with Cyclothymia. It was all new to me, and sounded weird, I never heard of the term before, but I was told everything we talked about there isn’t much missing from cyclothymia that I don’t have. I was asked do I want certain medication for it, I refused as I am feared of my mindset possibly getting worsened by pills, as it did before. I’m not one to take any form of medication, I’m all for natural herbal pills, I’m going to try “redicalm” and see how that goes? I also suffer badly with social interaction terribly. As for my highs and lows, I live for my highs and am proud to have whatever they say I have, it’s not all bad. When I’m high, there’s no drug or alcoholic drink on this earth that I would need, and it’s truely amazing, I don’t want a tablet to take that away from me, that’s me, I don’t want it altered. I just would love for the lows and social problems to go away. But don’t want to risk messing with my head anyway with mind altering tablets they offer me. . God made me this way so ive had to except who I am. But as I said it isn’t all bad, I love my highs. Thanks for your message I appreciate it. I hope your doing good. This Australian is cheering you on 🤙
BraunWynn Jay182
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Thanks for the update. You now have your diagnosis and yes I can identify. Totally kisses the pooch, if you can find something natural, that would be wonderful. An x friend of mine is schzioaffective disorder. She is still really sick and aggressive in her thinking and so in her relationships. She takes natural supplements and it does nothing for her. Unfortunately, her behaviour is reckless and it compromised my safety. I had to disengage from her. Maybe something natural will work for you. I feel for you trying to sort through things as for what they are. I am trying Radical Acceptance and it just makes me sadder. My medication has stopped the delusions, and hallucinations albeit knowing how seriously ill and the damage I have caused, I wish I was still talking to unicorns. Reflection is unbearably painful. Your social aspect usually improves once you start a med. If you have talk therapy avaliable to you, I would go for it. I have learned not to tell new relationships anything about my mental health. Stigma about the mental health community is just as bad as it was twenty years ago in our gay community. I could share stories about the bigoted interactions I encountered in my mental health journey. Thank you my Australian friend. Many comforts for you.