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Hi guys, I'm 23 years old with some very troubling symptoms since March, especially lately.
Whenever I go to sleep, I wake up shortly feeling drugged, seeing patterns & having thoughts that make absolutely no sense. I engage with these thoughts in the moment because it's like I'm completely out of my mind for a time. At some point, I end up realizing that my thoughts aren't making sense & I don't know why I'm interacting with them. Sometimes I stay awake because I'm scared of going back to sleep & other times I do actually go back to sleep & don't have another episode.
I go through each day feeling as if part of my brain is shut off from my surroundings, it's really hard to explain. The best way I can explain it is that it feels like I'm not really taking in or absorbing my surroundings, I feel kind of detached or something.
A few weeks ago, I was struggling with waking up in the middle of the night feeling as though I was dreaming while awake. It felt like I was having some type of out of body experience, it was very scary. It was like my mind completely shut off but my eyes were open.
Even now when I wake up from sleeping, I feel disoriented & like my mind is shut off while my eyes are open. I also can't sleep longer than 2 or 3 hours at a time.
I've also been experiencing weird head sensations, kind of like some type of head pressure or tightness. It feels as though my head might explode or something. Then there's the head pain in different parts of my head, it's not your typical headache though.
I also have pain in my arms, neck, legs & chest.
Does this sound like I might have some type of neurological problem? I don't know what to do because while I do have a primary care doctor, I can't just call him whenever I want. He's not available like that. Plus, he's kind of passive or something toward me. My next appointment with him is in July & that's just a follow up appointment for the meds he gave me ( which I stopped taking because they made my pain worse. )
I've been really scared since March that something very life threatening is going on with me & there seems to be nothing that anyone can or will do about it. I went to the ER for the third or fourth time yesterday for chest pain & they told me everything was normal.
While this may sound dramatic to people, I've actually been trying to get myself to accept death soon because I really do feel like I'm slowly dying.
Sorry for all the writing & thank you to anyone & everyone who might read this & reply. <3
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