Primary Outbreak, Please help! :(
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Okay so sunday night (12.20.15) I started getting flu like symptoms and had a fever of 101.3. I had an achey back, neck, legs, and I had the cold sweats, etc. Surprisingly I didn't notice any itching/tingling like most people say they do before an outbreak, but then again, this is my first so I probably just didn't pay attentions.
Alright so my past. I've slept with one guy only. We were together for 2 1/2 years and I did love him. Apparently he either lied to me about me being his first, or he cheated on me. We broke up in the beginning of August and haven't talked since. We broke up because he was going away to college and whatever.
So sunday night I just felt crappy, but didn't notice anything unusual except when I wiped I kinda noticed like it felt like i had a small tear at the bottom near my vaginal opening. I just thought I may have cut it some how and didn't really pay much attention or check it out.
Come monday morning (12.21.15) I woke up and peed and wiped to excruciating pain. I checked down there with a hand mirror and saw all sorts of little brown blisters around my vaginal opening and labia. I cried because I knew it had to be herpes. What else would it be? I was super scared because i'm only 18 and I didn't want my mom to be disgusted or mad at me. So I cleaned it the best I could with a cold washcloth, still had flu-like symptoms, rested all day, took ibuprofen, and hoped for the best. The very next morning (12.22.15) I could barely walk. I was in extreme pain and I had a large brown blister about a half an inch in length. The rest were around my vaginal opening. I called my mom up and cried to her and she got me an appoitment with my OBGYN immediately and I was seen within the hour. They took a urine sample because I was peeing blood, took a sample of the sores (extrmemely painful) and a blood test. I got my prescription for antivirals. When my doctor told me that yes, it looked like GH to her I started balling in the office and she was sweet and tried to comfort me. I took the medication starting Wednesday (12.23.15) and took them 5 times a day. I followed the instructions and didn't miss one pill. Yesterday was pretty bad. I can't pee without screaming. It's like its taking your breath away. Yesterday my sores were covered in a yellow-blister like fluid unlike how they were previously brown-looking. Very painful. Have a hard time walking. It's hard to keep the ones closer to the inside clean because its a moist area and I don't want to touch the area directly with a cloth or wipe. I thought yesterday was bad though....but compared today...not even close. Today, (12.24.15.) (Yeah. Merry Christmas to me, right? *sigh*) I woke up with the one sore that was a half an inch long starting to peel the surface off, which is digusting and painful. I try not to touch them directly and I make sure I wash my hands a lot. However, now the ones that were grouped around my vaginal opening have turned into another long single open sore, no fluid cover. It is sooooo painful I can't even walk. I had to fill up the tub and pee into it and even that hurt so bad it took my breath away. So now I have two long lesions and a couple tiny ones and I feel like I'm going to die. I hate this. This is the worst pain I have ever been through in my life. I did not deserve this. I did not deserve to be cheated on or lied to. I haven't gotten my test results back but I already know. Any advice on how to cope with going to family parties and acting like i'm not excrutiating pain???
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sweethheart5703 guest231
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I swore I had herpes but I keep testing negative for it. I'll be retested yet again in Feb. I think you are doing all of the right things. The tub thing and all of that. Try to keep yourself dry as much as possible down there. I hope things heal as quickly as possible for you! I'd call your ex and ask him what happened. Id be lived if my first time boyfriend gave me something. Amazing! Prayers to you! Try to keep your chin up!
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Sabrina55 guest231
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Family parties -- they will be tough, obviously. Can you miss them, and blame the fever/flu?
You write really well -- consider journaling/blogging to help cope with both the physical and emotional aspects.
And you are correct -- you did not deserve this. No one does.
guest231 Sabrina55
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No I will not be able to miss the family parties, nor do I necessarily want to because it's Christmas and that's about being with family and such. Hopefully being around people will help me take my mind off things!
Thank you for my comment about my writing! I do actually have a blog that I started a little over a month ago. (:
Yes absolutely, no one deserves this. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. I feel horrible for anyone going through this. It's also sad there's such a stigma about so I can't really tell anyone except my mom. It probably makes many others feel really lonely, so thank god I found this website. It's been extremely helpful. Happy Holidays!
FelizCastus guest231
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It is quite unusual to have what sounds like a very bad first outbreak so many months after your bf. Anything's possible with GH, but that is strange. Your doctor didn't suspect anything else? Not that I know what else it could be!
Anyway, until you have the results and know for sure, look after yourself. You might want to try occasionally soaking in a shallow tub of Epsom salts and dusting the lesions with cornstarch to help dry them out. Take ibuprofen or paracetamol for general pain and/or topical lidocaine for local pain.
As for family gatherings, it's not ideal, but just say you have a tummy bug or something. I'm still going to wish you an early merry Christmas, even though I'm sure it doesn't seem particularly merry to you right now. Hope things start to clear up for you soon!
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josiphine24649 guest231
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A lot of people don't know that they have herpes, because they never have syntoms or their syntoms are mistaked for other conditions. If your ex had a history of getting cold sores on his mouth, and gave you oral it's possible you got it that way, even if he didn't have a cold sore at the time. If that's the case a lot of people tend to over look oral herpes & fail to realize it can still spread to the genitals. It's possible that your ex spread it to you and just didn't know he had it himself, ot doesn't necessarily mean that he cheated or intentionally lied about it-but, I think it's best not to dwell on that. Or at least think about it later. ❤️
Family gatherings probably seen impossible right now, but if you can't get out of it is suggest just being as comfortable as possible. Loose cotton underwear were better when I had my first outbreak, they didn't rub on the sores as much when I walked around. Just know that youre the same person as you were before your diagnosis, but with a skin condition in a reall unfortunate place. Your first outbreak will end, even if it feels like forever, and the following ones shouldn't be as bad at all. 💝
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mikarose guest231
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My 'non expert' opinion would be to just leave the sores alone if you can. I found wearing a panty liner was more comfortable and less friction than just underwear. And then you can change them often and easily. For me after a few days on meds it seemed like it would take weeks for the sores to vanish but then on day 3 or 4 I woke up and they were basically gone 😊
I feel for you I know its awful to go through x
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mikarose guest231
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I had scattered ulcer type sores not really blisters or clusters - maybe about 10 of them at the worst point. I went on the medication within a week of exposure. It was still painful to sit/move/exist!
I'm on once a day suppressive medication now to prevent further outbreaks while I'm still struggling with the news
The reason I think not to touch the sores is so you don't contaminate other parts of your body and so you don't irritate them further.
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FelizCastus guest231
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Btw, once they are less oozy and painful, and especially if they become itchy, you can try applying diluted tea tree oil, but definitely not now, as that would burn! Just something to bear in mind for later. I used it during my first outbreak and loved the stuff, even now on occasion.
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