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Hi everybody, i am a 21 year old young man who has been suffering from HMS for the past five years. Since sophmore year of highschool my upper lip on the left side would twitch. As a young boy in highschool i took it very harshly and beat myself up a lot. I turned to drugs like xanax and pain killers because it would numb my feelings so much. I am now sober and am more enlightened than ever. I have been getting to the root of the problem and becoming completley aware of my tics. for example when i twitch I make other people twitch and look to see if they twitch as well instead of making eye contact and focusing on there eye color or patterns in there eyes! i had too stop trying to focus on seeing and feeling insecure if they were twitching and focusing on the there and now. Now some people will say "but i am aware I am twitching i friggen feel it!! It's so annoying!". Thats not what i am talking about. I am saying sitting in a room with a few people and one of them calls you out and says "everytime you talk about something theres a twitch in your lip. It seems like theres an itch right there. Why are you twichting?! where is this twitch coming from!?! It seems so annoying!" that happened to me. But that is only because I was ready for the embarrasement just like everyone on this page is because we live with it all the time 24/7 everyday. not this guy anymore. yea sometimes i twitch in front of people but i have to work on myself right there and then without HARSH judgment or criticism but becoming aware of what is happening at that moment. In my prayers at night i will ask god to relieve me of this disease and too not let myself suffer from it. i am very specific with god so if you have a question please ask we can work together. But i also make it very clear to myself when that i suffer from this disease and i do twitch, BUT I DO NOT HAVE TO IF I CHOOSE NOT TOO I WILL NOT ALLOW THIS TO TAKE OVER ME! i have been successful for about 2 weeks now and i have made progress each and every day. you dont need to medicate yourself or get surgery there is a healthy way of doing this be open and be unhurtable. I was devestated and so depressed living in dark for too long that i work on being unhurtable and remain posotive everyday. i was on this sight two years ago because i was embarressed and scared but i only saw the cures as medication and surgery that could kill me and i was already on the medication. now i have thick skin and will stay strong everyday. Please reach out to me so i can support you and you can support me. much love to my peoples
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