PTSD

I understand. I wasn't officially diagnosed with PTSD but a few months after a traumatic hospital experience similar to yours but not so severe, I started getting panic attacks randomly. The GP said they were caused by the shock and stress of the experience and prescribed a tranquilliser, haloperidol, which brought it under control. I had routine keyhole surgery to remove my gall bladder, but they didn't seal thing off properly and 2 days later I was rushed back into hospital with severe pain and fever. By the time they had investigated and diagnosed the cause (blood and bile in abdominal cavity corroding the tissues and causeing peritonitis) I'd developed a heart murmur so the subsequent emergency surgery was risky and I ended up in intensive care. A whole cocktail of nasty intravenous antibiotics was needed to bring the peritonitis under control. I still have nightmares about it. So I'd say your GP should understand. I hope you can get help.

Ask gp for referral to counselling and they can talk thru the best option that will suit you

I understand you completely! I used to suffer from major trauma for a lot of years and had some panic attacks and what not. In yiour situation, there are a few things you could try that might be able to help. Contacting and making an appointment with a counsellor/therapist would be a good start if you feel as if you can't go through with this alone which I don't blame you if you can't as I couldn't either. When the counselling sentions are doing the work on you, when these terrifying things occur which you explained, the thing that I did which helped me was write it down. Not say what's happening to you right at that moment, but write a short story about what your feeling and how you're feeling. Write anything you want in the diary/journal that would get all the bad things off of your chest to calm yourself down as writing your problems down has had an effect on a lot of people. If you ever do try that option and you feel as if it hasn't done enough, you could try burning it in a fireplace or disposing of it which ever way you want to as that always seems to help more as well as people feel that it's throwing your problems away. You could also listen to relaxing music and imagine yourself in a quiet and peaceful place which hopefully your counsellor would do with you. Another thing you could try are mind games or relaxing games that take your mind off the problems that are ocurring at that moment. I hope you get better soon and keep us updated so we know how you're doing *hugs*