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I posted not so long ago I think I said I was on week 5? But apparently I'm only coming up to week 4.. Feels like a lot longer! Basically I I've been really sick with the flu for the past week so I haven't really been doing too much because I've been trying to get better. My anxiety is actually so bad at the moment. I literally worry about anything and everything 24/7. On top of that I'm feeling really depressed-like really depressed. I'm having suicidal thoughts, feeling like I'm not really here and feeling really out of it. I really don't want to take my pills right now because I'm thinking that there going to make me go like crazy.. Im on 40mg I think ? I take two of the pills. I started reading about how anti depressants make you more depressed and more anxious last night and I've been really terrified ever since. I get that it's early stages but at this point I don't know how much longer I can deal with this.. I cry all the time, stressed out, I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. I really don't think I should take fluxoteine anymore if it's going to make me feel like this this is the worse I've ever felt.
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How are you doing?
I hope you are feeling a little better. We're here if you need us xx
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The medication does heighten your illness at first unfortunately. It does get better.
My son had a melt down last year and started on fluoxetine last August and seriously went through hell. Suicidal thoughts, sickness, shivering, feeling depersonalised, deep depression and anxiety etc .... such a worry for all of us and so very upsetting to see my son like it. He was off work about 4 months and was watched very carefully by medical staff and the family. However, he persevered through it all, and slowly he got better. It's now coming up for 10 months and I have my son back - happy, smiling and full of life.
You are having side effect symptoms so please know this isn't you - you even said you don't have the desire to do it. You need to speak to someone please if you're having suicidal tendencies - they should only be temporary, but you need to have support whilst waiting for this medicine to start helping. If ever you feel like that contact the Samaritans, your local Crisis Team, family, a friend, doctors ..... someone xxx
You will have irrational thoughts, but they will ease off in time. Thoughts are often all over the place and scary when you have this illness - your mind is tired and thoughts stick and bounce around a tired mind, but the medication will help put them back in perspective once it starts working.
You aren't alone - many people have gone down exactly the same path as you and have recovered.
K x
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