Really struggling

I think depression/anxiety can give us these unwelcome thoughts, which in turn we tend to start believing those thoughts. It's important to recognise these thoughts are not true and by no means are you rubbish or stupid. Are you currently taking any medication for anxiety/depression? If so you may need to get your meds reviewed. If you are not taking anything, please go and chat with your gp and explain openly what's going on with you.

wishing you well

god bless ♥♥

You're not rubbish or stupid at all, you're having a rough time at the moment! Has anything happened at work to make you feel like this? And have you talked to anyone about how you're feeling (like doctor/therapist)?

My self talk is negative at times too.  When it is attacking me, and that is what it feels like, I actively try to catch myself thinking those thoughts and force myself to stop thinking them.  Difficult to do but not impossible.  It can feel like a vicious cycle.  

There is a poem entitled, "Desiderata" by Max Ehrmann and I cling to it when I am down.  Especially the line, "If you compare yourself with others..."

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter;

for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.

But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals;

and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.

Especially, do not feign affection.

Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;

you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be,

and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.

© Max Ehrmann 1927

Take care, and I hope you balance out soon,

Dawn, USA

There are a lot of changes at work and has been for the last 6 months, also close friends leaving. Nothing bad has ever happened I just always worry that I don't understand enough! I'm a support worker at a hospice and find it very tough, I feel I kind of fell into this job but that it may not be right for me anymore!! I used to really like it but now constantly feel overwhelmed.

B x