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I'm after some advice really.
Bit of background info.
I had glandular fever in Sept 2014 and since then have had a gradual onset of various symptoms, constant fatigue, anxiety - resulting in panic attacks, confusion, brain fog, muscle aches, emotional instability, poor temp control, vertigo,... The list goes on - but you get the picture, basically I feel like a 90 year old with constant flu!
I'm 30 years old, have 2 children aged 12 and 5 and currently work 4 days a week after dropping a day due to not coping full time. Anyway, about 6 weeks ago after months and months of blood tests and various supplement treatments I was diagnosed with CFS/ME which has been confirmed by a specialist at the hospital.
Now, since then I have really struggled to accept the diagnosis and my limitations!
I have been trying to 'push through' the symptoms so I can fulfill my responsibilities at work and home but it's safe to say this is not working.
I work term-time only and have returned to work last week after xmas break, I've been back 3 days and feel like I've been hit by a train. By the time I get home and have managed to pull some kind of dinner together for the kids, I am exhausted, crying every evening because I just can't cope and then feel like I have no energy left to eat or even shower.
My husband works long days and I am literally dragging myself through until he gets home at about 6:30pm, he then has to take over pretty much so that I cane eat for 30 mins before having to get the children off to bed.. More and more he's even having to do this. I feel terribly depressed by the situation and have got to a point where I actually wish I wasn't here
I've even said to my hubby that he should take the kids and move out. As they'd be better off without me and my drama.
He's incredibly supportive and completely dismissed the idea, but I feel useless and I just don't know what to do anymore.
I've had 4 weeks off work since September and feel incredibly guilty about that too, basically I'm just constantly beating myself up and the symptoms seem to be getting much worse, I can barely get out to do the shopping and am spending all weekend at home trying to catch up, but that means the children are having to do the same.
I feel terrible about it all, does anyone have any advice as to how I can manage this better?
Sorry for the long post!
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