Really struggling today

i have no idea about those medicines that are being provided as prescriptions for anxiety and the right doses to intake on a single day but one thing is for sure that anxiety is a son of a b***h. We may have our own different battles but our enemy is just the same, i'am also still in a current phase of health anxiety and i'm still doing my best to overcome it completely and to convince myself that i don't have this type of disease that could kill me in the future. i know how hard it is on dealing with this mental issue but just so you know that you are not alone, ma'am. i can't tell you that you should just stop thinking about it and just ignore but no, that's not how it works and i'm aware of that it will never be that easy. but atleast try to seek for help from your issue like opening it up to your husband or asking for an appointment on a psychiatrist or counselor or any form of therapy that could help you to get through this endless loop of anxiety of yours. suicide will never be the answer on "ending your suffering." i want you know as well that if you might not have complete awareness but there are people who truly cares about you and are willing to provide any assistance that they could to help you. stay strong and do everything you can to survive because the pandemic really took a toll on a lot of people's mental health these days and both of us are one of those people. we will get through this eventually 😃 have a good day

if you have not done so already, get into some regular weekly counseling. You can do it virtually and it works great. Your intrusive thoughts are merely a sign of your intense anxiety and depression. You have control over them. And when you get the scary ones, just acknowledge them and watch them drift off. But you really definitely need some support right now. Your family and especially your children need you in their life no matter what’s going on. In order to be the best mom for them, you need to get some help with all of this. Suicide is never the answer. Your children will blame themselves for the rest of their lives and I’m sure you wouldn’t want that to happen. No matter how old our children get, they always want and need their mother. so take care of you first! You can feel better and there’s a lot of help out there. Even some churches have free counseling and can provide you with resources. Take one day at a time and each day do something nice for yourself.