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Dear kind people who went through hell because of mental illness,
I am a 19 year old, who has been treated from severe depression for 2 years unsuccessfuly,
one attemp of suicide, and two hospitalizations. Luckily last time I was
hospitalized there was a bipolar specialist who quickly realized that my diagnosis was
wrong(I have bipolar II) the entire time and I got proper meds for mine.
I take Seroquel, Eftil(I don't know what it's called in the US, but it's used usually for epileptic
episodes), Pregabalin(Lyrica), and I'm tapering off of Clonzaepam which I used to take for
I don't have manic episodes, I have slight hypomania, but very rarely. Most of the time my episodes
are depressive and I feel like I don't wanna live. I feel sadness and cry most of the time.
These meds so far got me a bit more balanced, and the psychological pains are not nearly
I wanted to ask if anyone with bipolar II has got their life together?
My college is starting in roughly 10 days, and I hope that days with structure(having to
wake up and go to college, study and so on) will help me get out of my own thoughts.
I have distanced myself from almost all friends, or some have abandoned me because I'm not
doing good. (You're just spoiled, you have everything, you have no reason to be sad etc.)
I wanna hear if anyone is functioning normally, and how did you get to that stage?
Because the more I stay in my depressive episode, the more suicidal I get, and most
of the time I don't see an exit other than suicide.
Any tips to get better? Is it even possible?
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