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So, in April, I applied for Personal Independence Payment. Simultaneously, I awarded Employment and Support Allowance.
I have Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD and Bipolar. Today, I received a letter to say I was awarded absolutely no points for anything. In my PIP form, I explained EVERYTHING. I get PTSD hallucinations that have been so scary that I nearly ended up in a few car accidents, dissociation causes me to lose track of everything, BPD mood swings drive me up the wall so much that I am unable to function normally because I am ecstatic one moment and scared and depressed the next.... I had to quit college because I could not be in a busy environment and could not handle the courses (I switched from one to another at the beginning of the year) among many other problems. My friends see what I struggle with on daily basis through Facebook messages. I dissociate during therapy sessions and am often very scared to be in session.
I could write about it all day. I had to get my social worker to fill in the form for me because I am unable to handle paperwork myself.
My mum is urging me to appeal, but I am so mantally and emotionally drained that I am not sure if I should try.
My physical ability to complete tasks depends on how I am feeling. I am contemplating quitting my dance classes because how ashamed and embarrassed I feel after this year's show. And during the last two years, I have texted my dance teacher to tell her I would not be in class that week because of I was feeling. This happened more in 2015 than 2014 (when I was first diagnosed.)
I don't know what to do. Any help would be much appreciated
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