Relapsed now

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Hi everyone, Ive come to the place where i feel safe and I can be myself. I have been sober for 3 months now, after final exams in school (studying Psychology) I went on a friends trip, and alcohol was flowing and I relapsed again. I think I have been drinking now for 5 days, currently I am drunk but not crazy drunk just enough to keep the withdrawl symptoms at bay. I dont want to drink but I dont want to feel sick. My boyfriend will get me some beers to get my at bay. I have taken one Xanax, I have valium, I just want this bad feeling to go away. I feel like throwing up but nothing comes out. I honestly just want to die right now. Please anyone can help me and tell me what do do. Thank you, you are the only ones I trust. Xx

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    Oh, Chesca, the easiest thing is to relapse. But you have also done the hardest thing which is to be sober for 3 months (3 months!!). And you have a boyfriend who cares. You might need to taper off this bout but you can do that. Remember how you did it before. You can do it again. Believe in yourself and care for yourself. You have a great life ahead of you. Best wishes

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    hi Chesca , very few people get sobriety first time, dont beat yourself up, you cannot change it now, what matters now is what you do next, do you wany to stop, be honest with yourself ? ok first step is to get through the next few days, dont take any more xanax or the valium while you are still drinking it will just make the withdrawls worse in the long run. if you are going to taper off you need to do it over a few days and not on your own, someone needs to control your alcohol intake, hopefully your boyfriend will help and stay with you. use whatever helped you to get sober before reach out to anyone who helped you before, someone you trust. physically you will have to go through some degree of withdrawls at some stage drink loads of water, even when you are still drinking go to a pharmacy, get some electrolites and motillium to help with the nausea , try and sleep as much as possible, one day at a time thats the only way to do this but it will get better you can do it , i know it is not easy but hang in there you will make it . i have done this many times unfortunately you are not alone in this battle , all the best

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    Hi Chesca, hope you are doing ok today ?

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      hi everyone thank you so much for your messages of support and good advice. Sorry i have not been able to reply, but ive been detoxing cold turkey these last 2 days. No pills, zero alcohol. today is the first day i can moreless function. i will write on here again more specifically about everything, once i have fully recovered. i just wanted to say thank you so much for being understanding and supportive. Your kind words have made me pull through these last 2 days. XX

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    hi Chesca , stick at it, i know it aint easy, but you will get stronger each day, be proud of yourself , your doing this for YOU

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      thank you so much, definitely not easy but i know i can pull through the worst has passed now. since i could not eat anything the last 2 days now today im eating healthy and taking vitamins. drinking vegetable and fruit juices. dont know if its normal to crave salty foods, i suppose my body is replenishing the loss of nutrients from the last 5 days. any advice of what food or supplements are good to get my energy levels up and stabalize my mood swings? thank you so much. XX

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    hi Chesca , multi vitamin and electrolites should replenish what the alcohol has taken out of your system, actually what it does is prevent your body absorbing the vitamins from whatever you eat when you are drinking (if you do eat when you are drinking) if you are unlucky enough to suffer from restless legs take magnisium it normally helps. the mood swings will settle down, your head is probably all over the place, but it will pass. like all the effects they will get better with time old cliche but true "one day at a time" stick at it , all the best

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    Hi Chesca , i hope you are doing ok, remember you a'int alone in this battle -

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