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I’ve been with my boyfriend for 9 months, everything was amazing. He gave me butterflies, he’s so caring, he’s smart, funny, etc. I’ve never felt for anyone the way I feel for him. But I struggle with anxiety and depression. One day I thought “What if I don’t love him anymore?” And now it’s off and on. It’s been going on since March, and seems to get worse and worse. My chest gets very heavy, and I overanalyze Everything. Since we came out of the honeymoon phase I don’t feel all those amazing feelings and I feel like I dont love him or want to be with him. I’m starting to get annoyed with him easily, when he calls in the morning I dont want to answer always, I dont know if I see a future with him now but I used to plan it all the time. But when I stop thinking about it, I’m okay. I feel more comfortable and stable with him than in love now. But I cant stop thinking about if I see a future with him or not, or even want to be with him. I cant tell if it’s anxiety or it’s real feelings. I cry All the time and I cant stop wishing I felt In love with him, all I want are the feelings back. When I think about breaking up something tells me not to let go. Im so lost in my mind.. I’ll get a random splurge of lovey feelings for him and “I know“ I want To be with him feelings, then I’ll think then why did I think all of those feelings before and it starts back up again. Then I read love is a choice not always a feeling and I just feel so lost. It’s like I look at him and calling my boyfriend feels weird now, as if I don’t know him. I look in the mirror and I don’t know myself. Any opinions ?? ):
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