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I wrote a few weeks back about how I was feeling after my breakup from my ex girlfriend and I find it helps to write down my feelings and ease my anxiety.
It's been 7 weeks since she left me and to say its been hell is an understatement.
I'm finding the emotional detachment impossible and all my thoughts (obsession, jealousy and ruminating) are centred on her and not moving on in a world without her.
I am on my 5th week of 30mg of Citalopram and whilst the panic attacks have slowed down (I had one on Friday) the anxiety is still very high.
I've applied myself for 2 lots of counselling.
1 for hypnotherapy and 1 for psychopherapy.
I run my own business and my business is failing as I cannot function and spend all my time worrying about where she is and who she is with. I am doing this now while I write this!
Yesterday was awful.
It took me 2 hours but I 'Facebook Stalked' and found the guy she is with and that just destroyed me. He is good looking and everything I am not.
It ruined my day and I had only an hour sleep last night.
I phoned the samaritans this morning as I felt so, so bad and I wish I wasn't around anymore.
Does anyone have anything to offer in the way of support?
I am on day 17 of No Contact but I can't shut off.
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