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Use my htcs4 when post on this site, i have no other meens? Even nowo,m having trouble as the words seem to stick as i write? Anyhoo to anyone who takes the time to read this please be understanding. I will later read the posts i sent yesterday but for now i wish to apologise. The answer or solution to problems will not be Found in the demon drink? Believe me i know of what i speak. Yesterday i was on a mission of send destruction, sleep i needed and sleep i got but at what cost? I dont meen financial i meen self worth or now selfloathing as it May be. I have been many things in my life and an alcoholic is not one of them although i find i have a problem stopping only once i start? The more i drink the more i think, the more i think the more i drink and the cycle begins, i have no hangover but regrets are creaping around my mind "my my do i bite" but thats the cost i have to pay to hold on to sanity. I get lorazapam, zopñicone, tramadol and veneloxine? Yes if take them i sleep but sleep should be more than the closing of ones eyes and inactivity of the brain, i need to dream, good dreams bad dreams memories regrets, dreams are what i crave yet my selfish act of getting drunk did not produce the desired effect but turned me into a jibbering idiot and here i am 4 in the morning awake again and my Palm starts over. My respite was brief and unrewarding but i wont need sleep again now for days, and thats how i cope. Sad but true. The cost of my existance.
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