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Running low on strength and hope

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walter_06293
walter_06293

This group is been so wonderful to get me to this point. I'm struggling right now and I need a bit of a push.

I have been on 20 mg for two weeks today and before that 10 mg for four weeks.

The horrible unreal spacey feeling is dreadful. Please let me know that you experiences and I did bad because it's been nonstop and very surreal. It tends to happen a few hours after I take my morning meditation and gets worse throughout the day and eat it at night but I just still feel so strange and odd. Did you go through this? Did things finally settle out? I just feel so unlike myself and everything feels so weird. I know this medication is working on my brain and making changes and rationally I can tell myself that when you're in the middle of it it's always scary.

When you feel high all day long it's hard to focus on anything but that I am going to keep going but I just need that push that ray of light that somebody else had been there with this constant feeling and they did get better. Thank you all.

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  • Gerrymoo
    Gerrymoo walter_06293

    Posted

    Walter have you tried taking the medication at night, it may help minimise the side effects - just a thought !
  • katecogs
    katecogs walter_06293

    Posted

    You often get side effects for a few weeks when you've increased your dose - it should settle soon.  The spacey feeling is a side effect of the meds - the meds work on your neurotransmitters in your brain, so its bound to make you a feel a little weird.

    Its also a side affect of anxiety too - because you spend time watching yourself (especially when you start the meds and feel a little weird), you begin questioning youself too day after day, and your mind becomes tired because of all the bombardment of thoughts etc.  This is also why you feel slightly detached from the world.

    Yes it does settle.  Try not to dwell on it.  Nothing bad will happen.  Just let it be there - its going to be anyway, so you might as well let it get on and do its stuff.  Try and accept its part of recovery, it'll be with you a little while (remember that weird feeling you get if you've had a bad cold or flu ..... this is no different).

    I've also messaged you.

    K x

    • walter_06293
      walter_06293 katecogs

      Posted

      Thank you Kate. I will try and take your advice of just letting it be there. I'm sure as you know that's easier said than done. I just needed some reassurance that the spacey feeling in the detach feeling or a normal part of the process with his medication. Unfortunately talking to my doctor is like talking to a brick wall. That's why I've turned here because it feels like I am alone in this process and I have to be with myself all day and cannot escape. I am determined to get better though I'm determined to be stronger

    • katecogs
      katecogs walter_06293

      Posted

      Oh absolutely - definitely easier to say than do - I crumbled many times trying that on many symptoms when I was ill and starting on meds.  It does help though ..... 

      Lots of people have the same problem re talking to their doctor.  Trouble is many of them just don't know.  It is lovely though when you find a doctor who has a special interest in this though.  Yes, a great group here smile

      Have a look at that link I sent to you - you'll find it really helpful.

    • walter_06293
      walter_06293 katecogs

      Posted

      I have read over your notes four or five times today trying to stay strong thank you again. This is a whole new adventure with medication that I can't quite wrap my head around because of the odd feeling. You say it gets better and you have been there so I'm going to listen

      By the specie feeling I meant it feels like I'm high. Like I just smoked a lot of pot. If that makes sense . So weird

  • debbie18265
    debbie18265 walter_06293

    Posted

    Hi Walter, the depersonalisation which is the name for feeling unreal etc was the worst for me but like Katie says just try and ignore it go for walks I had it for a week or two but it went and I've been on cut for 9 weeks and feel really good now it just takes time and when you up your dose you get the side effects again. There is light and it wil shine for you soon

    • walter_06293
      walter_06293 debbie18265

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      I'm trying my best. It's so hard to feel this way. I feel so horrible that I don't have any emotions to give to my family because I feel so numb and spaced out . I've made it this far and I'm gonna keep pushing through. Living my life this way is no longer an option I want to see the light you speak of . Thank you wants again Debbie. I am so glad you were feeling better

    • debbie18265
      debbie18265 walter_06293

      Posted

      This forum helped me so much o want to give back to other people and yes at first I was numb etc but I have all my feelings and emotions back but there good and you could try every night before bed writing down all the good things that you have done in the day or have happened but not to write anything negative all good it helps I do it every night now it helps put positivity back into your thinking and you will get there your doing just fine
    • debbie18265
      debbie18265 walter_06293

      Posted

      Haha we are all here for each other and everyday you will feel a little bit better, how are you today ?
    • walter_06293
      walter_06293 debbie18265

      Posted

      I'm laying in bed right now. Feeling a bit shaky. I have to face the day. I always make it through but it's just not an enjoyable time.

    • debbie18265
      debbie18265 walter_06293

      Posted

      Hi Walter yes me and the other Debbie are friends now we've been speaking on FB for weeks and we where discussing who shaky and nervy we were on a morning but once you get up and keep busy it gets better sndnoe I do t get any of that but had it for a while so tell yourself it will all be ok. You must be in America are you? As it's afternoon here now

    • walter_06293
      walter_06293 debbie18265

      Posted

      I am indeed. I am in the Seattle area of Washington state.

      It happens the same for the past few weeks. I take my pill and a whole late I feel spaced out and really stoned. I wake up feeling weird too but not as bad. Just always feel weird and would almost prefer just feeling shaky! Hahaha I'm hoping it all settles. Thank you for checking on me

    • debbie18265
      debbie18265 walter_06293

      Posted

      Your welcome and yes it can last weeks but you will soon see an improvement and o now feel normal again haha
    • walter_06293
      walter_06293 debbie18265

      Posted

      Fingers crossed! Did you have any of the same experiences?

      I sent you a message

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