Sad and uncertain

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Hi everyone Iast time I posted was after  I had my heart attacks in December 2014 now 2 weeks ago I had to be rushed to the ER for what they told me was a Heart Failure I spent a week in the hospital and was realeased with more Meds and now oxygen that I should use when necessary well I have been needing to use it more than I wish I needed to and today I finally go out with my husband and sad to say I needed to rush back home because I felt I was going to faint and was running out of air when I did put the oxygen on I then felt better and I just wanted to cry because I feel I will no longer have a normal life everyone tells me it's soon and that I should be happy I am alive that this is just a setback and I will overcome it I really hope I do but it's hard next week I have appointments with all my Doctors hope for me that things are ok Thank you

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    Hi Gabriela

    having read your post I would say try not to feel sad but determined that you will again be able to enjoy the company of a trip out with your husband. It could have been that you were physically short of oxygen and needed to return home but it also could have been that your confidence has been knocked and that moving away from your life giving oxygen to go out made you feel anxious and breathless since, as soon as you returned to the safety of your home and the oxygen you recovered. I do hope this could be the case and that with time to rebuild your confidence you will be able to enjoy your life again.

    lots of love to you

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      Thank You Kathy80717 I really do hope this will get better because it is causing stress I wake up in the middle of the night sometimes short of breath too I can be watching tv too and run out of breath and it just really really makes me sad I hate the fact that I now need this oxygen I feel like crying every time now I just feel really sad I thank you for taking your time and replying and your good wishes 
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    Hello there - what a horrible time you've had, not surprising you are feeling sad and very anxious but it really is early days yet - it's been a lot for your body to cope with so just for now try and relax, pace yourself and maybe very short outings, a walk round the garden, a stroll up the road a short way and back etc. gradually you will feel stronger but you mustn't overdo things yet! It's very frightening having problems with our heart - I had a valve repair 18 months ago and still have AF, sometimes at night I get little twinges and think 'hello, is this it???!' It's normal to feel like this, take each day as it comes, read, watch telly etc. you will be having your follow up soon and you can discuss things then but till then try not to think about it, we're still here! and it takes a while to recover after a hospital stay. All the best to you, sending thoughts and keep your chin up!!!!
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      Thank you linda346 I really Apreciate your words I know it's soon and it's going to take time for me to Really recover from all this but it is making me very sad I just want to cry all the time and dying doesn't scare me the fact of becoming a burden is what scares me I had never felt this way before and my family loves me and supports me but I just can't stop feeling this way.

      so do you feel much better after your valve repair? Do you still take Medication? 

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      Oh Gabriela, I really feel for you - please try not to be too sad - it is very early days yet, you havn't had your follow up when you will get a clearer picture of the situation (make a note of any questions you need to ask the consultants, it's easy to get outside and realise there was something you meant to ask!!)   Try not to think too much !!!! - that sounds silly but try not to dwell on the things you can't do at the moment, hopefully this will all improve and you will just make yourself feel worse, think how lucky you are that you are home and able to enjoy your family around you, take each day as it comes if you can, no one knows what the future holds and often it's not as bad as your worst imaginings!  It took me around 6 months to really recover from my op, they tried to cure my AF during the op but it didn't work so I'm still on warfarin but my surgery has a clinic so I go there to check my blood every few weeks. I am on Losartan and also low dose Bisoprolol for my blood pressure - still not fully controlled but not keen on higher dose due to side effects on my diverticulosis!!  Just had a heart scan to check valve repair is still ok so I'm keeping my fingers crossed!!!!  Sending best wishes and thoughts, if you find yourself awake at night then think of something nice or a television programme or a holiday - don't let your mind start worrying, I imagine a metal blind which I pull down to shut out bad thoughts,works for me!!!!  Let us know how you get on with the doctors. 

       

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