Sat here for 20 minutes staring at this space.....how and where do I start :'(
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I'm a waste of air literally. I have only two reasons to be here, one being my Dad who I care for, two being my Dog, and I've just found out after putting my dog through major surgery (£1500) she's got cancer and only has months to live.
like ** ** my heart is physically breaking. I now owe my dad money, as if I didn't feel worthless enough, his mum/my nan passed away a couple weeks ago and the funeral costs are £3500. I was caring for her as the cancer took over the nan I used to know, while trying to do the same for my dad, all the while I'm dying inside. My bio....i want to be dead but I don't want to die. How can you want to be dead so badly but be petrified of dying!! I just feel like losing my dog, my absolute everything, will be the final nudge.
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sam18386 Ellie1989x
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hi Ellie. i just can't think how heartbreaking this situation must be. vets will put out the worse case scenario. secondly who said you were a waste of space? nonsense! the people who do the most cope best. if you want a hob done you ask a busy person. it sounds like you could do with a bit of emotional support. Samaritans are open 24/7. cruse deal with death , they are a national charity. keep talking, if you go silent then people will panic. bless you i will add you to my prayer list x. good luck to you. 🤞
Spargo6 Ellie1989x
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dear ellie,
please don't think you have no purpose in life,even if you are going through a bad period,at the moment.
Mental episodes do come and go in people's lives,and i would strongly advice you seek
help.
I've had to,on and off,for years,but this doesn't mean you will always have this problem.
Please talk to a family member or friend(it does help).
Besr wishes,
Richard.
joshuapryce1987 Ellie1989x
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There are things you can do to increase money in finances. You could go into a overdraft or get a loan, or get help from the government to pay for the funeral. Do what you think is best, and be honest with your dad and settle an amount you can pay him back each month. If the bank is merciful when in debt your dad will be. Speak to a money advisor.