Scared to go to sleep
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I've been very stupid this evening, had a glass of wine with my dinner around 6.30 got very agitated thoughts of self harming Tec so went out for a walk, took 5 mg of diazepam spoke to the Samaritans came home had two more glasses of wine cos what the help. Now I'm lying in bed thinking should I go to sleep will I wake up in the morning. Stupid or what I feel ok but very relaxed.
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jo57386 tina89895
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laura08496 tina89895
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please dont take this the wrong way...but DO you want to kill yourself? it took for my best friend 11 times to try until he finally succeded. he would drink alchohol and take his narcotic meds at nightime...hoping to fall asleep and never wake up. so, it took him a couple of times. until one day, his wish came true. forgive me, i'm just not sure what your goal is. a few glasses of wine at bed time is never a good idea. that doesn't always ensure a good nights sleep. but if you take your diazepam with it, you just might sleep thru the night. especially if you raise your diazepam dose after a few times realizing that its not working like it used to. narcotics work that way....and so does wine by the way.
please educate yourself on what to expect when you begin to put that deadly combination together. get well girl
tina89895 laura08496
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tess33005 tina89895
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So now we know what's really happening, we can help.
I really hope that you NEVER succeed in killing yourself. Have you ever phoned the Samaritans?
Have you really got borderline personality disorder?
I mean, do YOU think you have?
Stay with us. Don't let the bad feelings win. love Tess
tina89895 tess33005
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I have not been diagnosed with BPD as a lot of the traits were controlled during my marriage I don't think I have but then i don't really know what goes on in my head a lot of the time. I'm going 1000 miles an hour, detatched, things seem ureal,can't think do irational things then it all calms down again for a while, hours or even a day or two. It is all very difficult to describe at times and i have great difficluty talking about things. I've spent such a long time suppressing my emotions even from childhood that it is now all coming out not in a controlled way which is what they are trying to guide me with. hope this makes some sense to you.Â
i don't want to die but want to escape these thoughts feelings and uncontrolable urges, i take risks and if it happens it happens. i don't really care which is the worrying thing.