Schizophrenia?

I am extremely worried If I have schizophrenia or not. I know it can develop in the teens to early twenties. 

I have seen a therapist A who diagnosed me with OCD and generalized anxiety which I have undergone intense therapy for over the past few months 

But it's hard to tell as the "OCD voice" and intrusive thoughts scare me into wonder if there's emote than just that if I'm schizophrenic couple that with my fear of being taken away which I think comes from an experience I've had with sleep paralysis and interest into fringe science topics

But I know paranoia and irrational beliefs can be a symptom

I've seen two Pyschiatrist but I never mentioned schizophrenia  abuse I wasn't sure it was logical to leap from OCD which I actually have been diagnosed with to a more severe disorder

But I'm really scared I'm going through some predominal stage or something

Sometimes I get so worried about hallucinating and if I am and how do I know like especially the last few weeks

It's another one of my greatest fears  I will often pause the tv or ponder if I've had an auditory hallucination

Another one being going insane and losing cognition and control over myself sometimes I get "body jolts" that are read are common with anxiety especially after stressful days and I get afraid time stopped moving or once I was sleeping and felt like if I was controlled or something I don't know but I know it's irrational but what can't i convince myself 

Existential obsessions have been a part of my nearly half year journey with anxiety and Pure O and my greatest fear is that I will lose control over myself or that something is out to get me 

I feel like this is my fault for digging so passionately when I was younger into fringe topics like sciences, astronomy theories, paranormal, astrology etc.

I have been prescribed Lexapro and have taken 5 Mg over the past two days for my history with depression and anxiety but as I scan through my memories

(Compulsion of anxiety)

I think I did suffer some grandiose thinking, poissinke hallucinations, and paranoia like I couldn't sleep in my room because I wa afraid something would happen to me or I would be abducted etc. 

Can someone on here  who has experience with schizophrenia please help me sort through this I am going back to see my Pyschiatrist soon and every time he ant to mention this I suddenly sober like "that's irrational your fine" but what if that's only out of fear I remember reading once about depersonalization which get along with foggy headiness when I'm anxious or am my adrenaline is rushing that reality will not break and that it never had for anyone

 I just feel so afraid that what if I'm an exception and realty does break or something "unexplained" happens to me 

On a side note I am currently quitting porn which I was severely addicted to and used as a coping mechanism the past decade maybe some of this is withdrawal symptoms?

I know this is a lot to read and sort through but I've in a rather scary point in my life and just want to get better 

I've done everything 

Eating better though I'm not perfect 

Walking a mile plus almost everyday 

Sleeping at least 5+ hours 

Prayer, hobbies, CBT intensely which has helped LOADS but is there something I'm missing? 

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