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Ok, So about 4 months ago I started at university with high hopes as I was studying a course I loved with something I was extremely good at. However since I started things just went downhill really fast. I have struggled to make any decent friends and found myself hanging out with people I didn't really like and since I stopped being with them I have found myself alone.
My lack of friends has left me in a horrible situation where I do not have anyone to share a house with next year and I am struggling to find a place to live.
Also the course I thought I loved is going terribly. I know it is the right course for me but I have lost all motivation and all assignments I have completed so far have been of a horrible standard and I know I can do better. I always show up but still none of my lecturers even know my name or that I exist and I know if they paid some attention to me they would see how good I am. My studies are in a mess and I don't know how to recover as I feel getting off on this bad a foot has wrecked evertything completely.
I am also running very low on cash as I have spent most of my savings and student loan on a drug habit that came out of nowhere. I have always taken drugs recreationally but since I started univeristy I am taking Cocaine, MDMA, Mephedrone and other substances multiple times a week just to feel good for a while.
I don't expect any of you to have an answer for how to fix all this as it is me who has backed myself into this hole but what I really want is someone to hear me. I don't feel like getting out of bed in the mornings and don't want to face these problems. I just want to run away somewhere and bury my head in the sand and forget the world completely.
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