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I am 36 and have always been the 'big one' in my group of friends, colleagues. 4 years ago i was 18stone and lost 6 1/2 stone in space of a year. i was so pleased with myslef i could fit into size 10-12 clothes and was feeling real good, people then started to say i looked too skinny. I felt as though i could not win 1st im too fat now im too skinny, even stranges would say stuff, i was at the pizza counter in Sainsburys and one slim women said to me i could do with eating a few pizzas, i then took on board what people were saying and started to eat a bit more, worst mistake of my life as i am now 20 stone size 20-22 and i have a serious issue with food, I am addicted to food. I also became addicted to co-codamol along the way and am just starting to deal with that issue but feel once i have completed that i seriously need to tackle my weight. I know i can do it without the help of weigh loss surgery or drugs but i am scared. I use food as i sure most on here do as comfort, its my only true friend, it will never let me down and its so dam yummy but i do feel alwful after i have stuffed my face with share size packs of choc or have a burger and chips at lunch and then a dinner in the evening.
I have a food addiction that much i know but i feel everyone sees a fat person and thinks they know my story, they think i am fat and lazy and all i do all day is eat, wrong. I am no where as active as i use to be and i get out of breath going up the stairs i know i must stop as im killing myself but i find food hard to go without.
I feel all GP's are not very sympethic towards fat people they jsut say eat less but if i was an alcholic or drug addict they would help me to go to rehab anfd battle my addiction there just seems to be nothing for people who are staring their addiction in the face every day, it is extremly hard just to make a good choice be it at a petrol station, supermarket or corner shop.
I think as a society we need to wise up, reliase that food addiction is true and be slightly more sympathic towards fat people We need to feel that as soon as we walk in to a dr surgey we will be given the full support that is needed not just offered pills or surgey or told to eat less, this needs some form of mind training cause even if we lose the weight there is no guarantee it will stay off the problems with food which were there before are still there hiding, I am living proof of that., I dont mind using the word fat as i am now mainly all fat , i aplogise if my choice of word affends some.
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