Sertraline Help! Very Anxious and full of fear
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Hello everyone. I have had an anxiety problem for over 10 years now. When I was 16, I was prescribed Paxil 30MG. because I refused to go to school, was stuck at home full of fear all day and could not bring myself to go out or eat or anything. I do not remember the exact time frame, but the medicine eventually began to work and I was finally able to go to school again and feel normal again. I did things I never thought I would be able to do again. I was anxiety free and living life normally. I even graduated college with a BA! This worked for about 9 years up until this past June.
A few months ago, I randomly got anxious all over again and had a terrible panic week, which eventually eased up and I remained on the Paxil. I was doing much better up until August when I met with a new psychiatrist. She informed me that what I was experiencing was a Paxil poop out effect and eventually wanted to me to stop taking Paxil in the future, but for now, we would increase my dosage to 40MG. This did not help at all as I found myself crying, fearful and full of anxiety a week after the increase. I went back down to 30MG and told her about it. She then told me that we had to switch my medication and that I would now try Sertraline(Zoloft). I was put on a tapered 10-day plan, and at the 10th day, I would be on 50MG of Zoloft. Paxil withdrawal was terrible, but I managed to get through it. after being on 50MG for 3 days, she bumped me up to 75MG of Zoloft and would also prescribe be Klonopin. When I am very anxious, I fear everything so I feared of becoming addicted to Klonopin so I took it sparingly. I would take 1/2 of a .50MG tablet in the morning, and the other half at night. I was still very anxious and fearful everyday, but managed to actually go to work and do some stuff. Going into Week 5 of being on Zoloft, I felt good surprisingly. I felt like I was getting better, so much so that I stopped taking the 1/2 Klonopin at night and would only take it in the morning. Then that Thursday night going into Friday, I felt so good that I decided I wouldn't take the Klonopin at all on Friday. I was fine about a couple hours at work and then Anxiety came back full throttle. I managed to get through the day but have not felt okay since. I have been full of anxiety and fear and hopelessness. Since this, I have been on 100MG for exactly a week and do not feel good at all. I feel nausea, fear, anxiety, hopelessness and just feel like I will never get better, feel as if everyday I will be fearful and scared of anything and everything. I am afraid I am going to lose my job because I have missed so much work during this transition to this new medication. My boss is understanding but he can only be so lenient. All together, I have been on Zoloft for 6 weeks. Roughly 4 weeks on 75MG and 1 week of 100MG. It is so frustrating to me because I had such a great week 2 weeks ago and truly felt like I was getting better, and have since crashed and feel like I'm back at square 1, if not worse. I have since been instructed to take a whole .50MG of klonopin at night and during the day, so 1MG of Klonopin a day. I also have Hydroxyzne 10MG for nausea. I do not like to take these medications as I fear I will become addicted but that is because im afraid of everything at the moment. I feel so hopeless and am explaining my story in hopes that someone has gone through what I am feeling exactly and has seen the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm not sure how long this is supposed to take to work but I feel like it has been forever and it makes me feel even more hopeless. The only times I ever feel somewhat normal is when it is bedtime or when I nap, because it is somewhat of an escape from my intrusive thoughts that strike me with fear all day. Any replies are greatly appreciated and bless you all.
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