Severely Depressed, no drive anymore
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I have been apart from my wife for a few weeks (I know not a long time, but we are new-ish in marriage still and hate being apart). In those few weeks I have been utterly alone in a tiny apartment. I am here because I needed to be here before her in order to start my new job. However, I found out last week that I would need to have a drug test done before I can work. No big deal, but I wish they had let me know beforehand so I could have started work as soon as I arrived. This ended up costing me around $800 for the week of not being able to work. I decided to take advantage of that time and search for a house. We had our pre-approval and are under contract now, but this morning the bank came back and said "actually, we revoke the previous approval amount and now you are only qualified for x amount because your wife is not receiving an income, but a stipend each month" (of $2500/month plus my income, this is total bull). And so now we are going to be seriously f****d because we were asking them to rush it so that we could have our offer in. They literally revised our approval amount because our agent reached out to them and asked if they could please hurry up. So, in total, we are being hosed on two different sides, and then have the great luck to be apart for about a month during all of this. I already have severe depression, but this really topped off what I could handle and today I totally broke down and lost the will to do anything. I feel so much anger in my heart, as well as an inability to do or say anything other than just cry. To even sit up and write this has almost cost more energy than I have. and it is honestly way worse than what I am able to describe. I just feel so broken, miserable, depressed and worthless. I am seriously hating my life right now and have lost the will to do anything. What do I do?
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sam18386 anon4kd
Posted
hi anon, i don't where to start, i think this is all so new and you don"t have your strong partner with you. i feel certain events have flipped you over the edge. you need to look at each event on merit it may be that you can deal with these one by one. write down everything you need to do. then be happy when you do each one and most importantly be pleased with yourself!!!! 😁
abhinav49699 anon4kd
Posted
Depression makes us see all the bad stuff and lose heart. You have a wonderful wife, and although she is not there with you presently, she will be soon. The finances have caused turmoil in your life, but you will soon start your job, and things will start to get better.
joshuapryce1987 anon4kd
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Drive comes from deep within and comes from outlook. You must want to go somewhere before you take the steps to getting to that place. Wisdom is spiritual and intelligence comes from good experiences and focus.