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ok so here goes....writing out my feelings for you all.
i feel rubbish, worthless, useless and very low. I dont have anything to smile about. The positive things in life have hindrences that make matters worse. Im consumed with suicidal thoughts and self harming because thats what i deserve except i cant carry them out for fear of failure and getting caught and ending up in some nut house. My partner would split up with me and id be alone and that would make me worse.
i cant go get help with it as im ashamed to admit it. The whole thing would stop me from working. work is the only positive right now and i need that but id get sent home straight away with my job.
my family aint approchable, always have something else more pressing to worry about.
i dont have many of friends, most havent got the time to speak so i just sit here in a constant whirlwind of suicidal thoughts. its like im drowning and everyone around me is breathing. they are fine and im just looking at myself for the failure i am.
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