Should I continue ?
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Brief history
Citalopram 20 mg 5 weeks
Citalopram 30 mg 7 weeks
Ended up in hospital for 2 weeks after feeling suicidal
Switched to mirtazipine 15mg for 1 week cross tapered with citalopram 20mg
Mirtazipine 30 mg for 5 weeks
Mirtazipine 45mg for 3 weeks
Still unable to function as normal not been able to work since march this year. I am able to go to sleep and manage avg 5.5 hours. Can't eat during day but sometimes feel better on an evening. Still getting the hideous awful thoughts like I'm never going to get better, I' ll never work again, I can't lube like this .....I'm sure you know these thoughts too! Wake up every morning full of anxiety and now have to take propanolol to help the physical symptoms but the thoughts are hard to deal with. I also have CBT weekly
The question is do I grit my teeth for a few more weeks and hope things will improve or do I bite the bullet and ask to try something else ? And if so what on earth do I try next ?
Please help
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lauren56321 Lan-69
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Lan-69 lauren56321
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I just want to be able to function, my life is just spending the most of my day lying on my bed. I try to force myself to do things even if it's just going for a walk round the block but I find it exhausting.
Iv been contacting the crisis team on a daily basis for the past few days and had the police and ambulance the other night because of the thoughts of wanting to harm myself and not wanting to live like this anymore it's not even living it's just existing. The day just seems to go on and on and I get little rest from these thoughts.
This illness is the most lonely and isolating experience
lauren56321 Lan-69
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Lan-69 lauren56321
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But this time I'm well and truly in it's grip and it's dragging me down. Iv had many losses over the past few years and then my son was diagnosed with serious mental health problems and has been on a section for the past year.
If I'm not riddled with anxiety I'm in the dark hole of depression! I need to overcome this for myself and my sons
I look forward to taking my tablet each night knowing it's one day more to getting better
orchid1 Lan-69
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Lan-69 orchid1
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I saw my psychiatrist yesterday and she has added sertraline to my mirtazipine.
So I'm now taking 45mg mirtazipine on a night time and 50mg sertraline on a morning. I also take 3.75 zoplicone for sleep and she has also gave me some 2mg diazapam to take 2x a day if needed.
I'm praying this works Iv read somewhere it's a ' heroic combo ' whatever that means !
Lets hope that light starts showing itself soon
oldboy Lan-69
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I take 100mg sertraline in the morning and 15mg mirtazapine at night.
I use the sertraline to control anxiety and the mirtazapine just to help me sleep. Those work well. I have not needed zopiclone or diazapam.
It has been a heroic combo for me!