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Good evening all, after going cold turkey for 6 days from 7.5mg I went back on mirtazipine at 15mg for 2 days then doctor told me to go 30mg which was 5 days ago but since I went cold turkey I've been suffering from a panic disorder which I never normally have (i have anxiety ) I think the mirtazapine is doing more harm than good, it's making me feel like I don't want to live any more but I don't want to die because I still have hope! I've got really bad depersonalisation too since coming off mirtazapine and I thought once I took it again it would go away! I'm waiting another couple of days then I'm going to wean off it...every waking second is a nightmare all I do all day is Google about mirtazapine and anxiety cures...I keep thinking today I'm going to get a bottle of vodka and pills but then I think of my little boy, I've been going through a bad patch since July, this is never ending! I can't except these feelings....I really want to drink alcohol and get drunk to get some relief but I know the next day it will be pure hell which I'm already in....doctors don't know jack $hit about antidepressants....I said to my husband when I feel better I'm gonna dance around the garden naked lol! I'm in constant panic, I just feel side effects all the time off these damn pills! Nothing distracts me apart from having my dose of mirtazapine at 9pm and watching the history channel till I doze off! Ready for another day of hell 😈
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