Sick and Tired
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Hi all,
Just wanting to vent really. I am new to this page and am looking for some advice if possible. Ive been battling with major depression for 6 years now after a major move, a miscarriage then a break-up. I have been swapping and changing my anti-depressants constantly to try and find one that doesnt turn me into either a zombie, someone who gives a sh*t about nothing, overweight, lazy, vague, unmotivated and terribly anti-social. I just want to be who I used to be, someone with heaps of friends, very strong work ethic, was house proud, energetic and had hopes and dreams. I constantly feel like I am living for nothing. I have no reason, no ambition, no hope!!!! I have one child who is 13 and I try so hard to hide all this from him but as he gets older the more he can see. I know I am not setting a very good example for him and I want to start caring about that. I love him dearly and I know he should be my reason for living but sometimes I just think he would be better off without me as a role model. Deep down I know this is not the case. Im not suicidal by any means but I just want to feel excited about life again. Am tired of seeing psychologists because they continuously tell me what I should be doing, which I am well aware of - but the anti depressants just kill everything emotionally and physically. Im nearly at the point where I cant work (I have lost the last 3 jobs Ive had for not being switched on enough). Previously I had NEVER EVER been fired or asked to leave. Im ashamed of myself and who I have become on these tablets. I tried reducing my dose of my current prescription and whilst I sort of sprang back to life physically, I became extremely over sensitive and had to increase my dose back again. Does anyone have any advice at all???
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johndiggle jennx
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Keep in touch with some old friends, maybe even go out to a small party or by one another home for some fun and catching up memories which will bring you back to the good memories you had.
I know it can feel wrong like u do not want to do anything nor go out but force yourself to do so and convince yourself this is how you will feel better, your child needs you and you need to keep your job for your child.
Fight this off with all you've got do not keep thinking about it.
jennx johndiggle
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Thanks again hey
Tryingagain jennx
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