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So anxious I don't feel like myself. I don't know what to do.

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mushroomtrails
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Pressure headaches. Stomach pains/ nausea/ no appetite. I'm 5'6 and 110 pounds, I can't get myself to eat enough. Chewed up cheeks and lips. Tight chest, feel like I can't get enough oxygen. Sore EVERYTHING from being tense all day. I think I've lost the ability to relax my shoulders. Clammy feet and hands, sometimes my whole body. Insomnia. Dizziness. Shaky hands. Restlessness across my whole body.

Racing thoughts. Inability to concentrate; can't even read a book. Constant sense of being overwhelmed. This feeling of impending doom. Constant feeling like I just don't know what to do with myself. Strange mind games, like counting syllables in everything I come across; altering it when necessary to make sure there is an even number. I can't accomplish anything that involves mental focus. Now terrified for my grades, too. Is college even right for me? It wouldn't be so hard of my brain would work. Why can't I cope?

I was always an A student. It is 2 in the morning, and I have a project due in the morning that I started yesterday; been assigned a week. Another project due the following day. Assigned FIVE weeks ago, haven't started because I'm struggling reading the material for it.

I'm constantly thinking "I don't feel sober right now." Like there are all kinds of strange chemicals flowing through my brain.

There is nothing actually wrong in my life. Some stressful things happened a few months ago, but I generally don't think about them too much. I eat about the best diet possible. Good friends, good family, although I do miss my family a lot being away for school.

I've had bad anxiety for 6 years, although I had it as a child too, just not bad enough that it was even recognized as anxiety at the time. Some times are worse than others. But this past month has been horrible, and getting progressively worse. I don't know why, I don't know what to do. I have Xanax, but I hate taking that crap every day. I refuse to get back on a daily anxiety med, haven't been on one in a couple years. Weed will help for a little bit, but it comes right back. And weed doesn't help me with the school work...

Even the format of this is strange, it's like my brain is backwards.

I want to SCREAM and run as fast as I can.

What do I do? How do I cope? Similar experiences?

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  • Lisa362
    Lisa362

    Posted

    You really need to see your doctor if you haven't already. You are suffering from a severe anxiety disorder and you need help. I know how horrendous this condition is as I suffered with it for 6 months due to a

    change

    in medication. I had all of your symptoms it was worse than being dead. I couldn't sleep, eat or even sit

    down comfortably I was in constant pain. You haven't mentioned medication but your doctor might want to put you on a sedating anti depressant and possibly prescribe you some diazepam until the anti depressant kicks in, as they can take a few weeks to show effect. I really hope you get the help you need soon as I

    know how lonely this illness is and how desperate it makes you feel. Take care. Lisax

  • j50802
    j50802

    Posted

    Completely agree with Lisa, and Diazapam is amazing and rely helps get me through the settling in stages of the medication
  • malcolm47
    malcolm47

    Posted

    Yes it;s a real bummer,been there and done it,but get yourself treated with the correct meds. They'll only give you Diazepam for a month,but looks like you need something more powerful,in the meantime accept it,hard but acceptance helps,I wish you well,and hope you get the help you need.
  • Anon5740
    Anon5740 mushroomtrails

    Posted

    I feel the same way I've looked more into it and have discovered the symptoms are linked to a disorder called dispersonalization or derealization disorder it sounds scary but it's more of a feeling of relief knowing your not insane and not the only one struggling with it. I hope you look more into this because the sooner you get help the better you get the longer you wait the worse it gets... Hope this helps you and know if this is indeed what you have that you get the help you need! (;
    • Anon5740
      Anon5740

      Posted

      I meant (: not a winky face -_- now I feel creepy lol
  • emma24388
    emma24388 mushroomtrails

    Posted

    Yes yes yes!!! I feel the exact same. Not myself. Dizzy sad. Cry all the time impending doom which causes severe anxiety feel like im on drugs like an acid trip sometimes.  Ive been on prozac for 4 days and has made me feel terrible.  Fingers crossed the prozac will work soon cos im finding it very hard. Always feel worse and detached from my body when im alone so I hate being alone and I feel 10times worse at night. 
  • kimberley_84252
    kimberley_84252 mushroomtrails

    Posted

    I feel the exact same I have been on 20mg citalopram for 6 months and tbh felt a bit better at start but feeling worse again still can't go into shops with bright lights as triggers my panic attack off and also noticing I'm getting dizzy spells when at work and tired alot, anxiety is horrible as makes you question are you alone in this, but coming on here and seeing everyone help each other through it is amazing really gives you hope that it will get better :D
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