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I'm 25 years old with 2 children,I live with my partner who works a lot off the time! I lost my mum when I was 6 years old due to cancer this have never really seemed to bother me until I had children! 1st my son who is now 6 and now I have a daughter who is 5months since having my daughter I am constantly thinking I have cancer!! I check for lumps every day and self diagnosis on the Internet even for a cough! Since having my daughter I've convinced my self I have cervical cancer my doctors won't do a smear yet as my cervix won't be back to normal! So the past month I have just been telling my self I'm dieing and going to leave my kids like my mum left me and my brother!! But this last week my daughter got rushed into hospital and was admitted for 4 days they thought she was going to go into intensive care!! Luckily she is fine and was aloud home after 4 longs days! Since having her home I haven't been myself unable to eat even less then what I was before I thought I had cervical cancer! I've lost a stone and half in 6weeks due to stress and anxiety! I've never told any1 how I feel it ever spoke about my mum! Saturday 15th February I broke down Infront of my 2 child being sick having a panic attack I had to ring my dad to come and get me! He had to take me to a&e I was that bad I thought I didn't want to be here while I was having these Planck attacks I just wanted to be dead!! So nearly a week later on calopram 20mg feel rubbish in a morning but my self in the afternoon! But have been getting really bad night sweats which then lead me to self diagnoses again and guess what cancer again does any 1 no if night sweats is a side affects to calopram? I have an oppitment with a councillor next week what I am actually looking forward to! X
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