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So confused about my relationship.
I have been with this guy for 4 months. He is my first boyfriend and first everything. He is sooo lovely and treats me so well. He would do anything for me. He told me he loved me after 2 months. The problem is I don't and it freaked me when he said it. We went through a bad patch when my mum tried to commit suicide a few months ago and I couldn't handle having a boyfriend too. I let him back in because I really wanted it to work, but I am a very anxious person and am struggling with the whole thing. I don't know how I feel because when I'm with him I really care for him but when we are apart I just worry about everything and feel like I don't like him enough. I keep thinking maybe I'd be better off without him, but then I can't imagine being without him and it upsets me a lot. I'm really stuck and it's depressing me, I am in a pretty bad place anyway with my mum being really ill still and I don't like my job anymore. I just don't know what to do for the best and I really don't want to break his heart, but I feel like eventually I will. It just goes round and round in my head like torture. I keep thinking maybe it's just me who isn't capable or love at the moment, but then I think maybe we just aren't compatible coz sometimes I find him quite boring and we have a different sense of humour. I feel guilty when I'm with him sometimes because I know how much he loves me and I don't feel the same and might never do. And because he is my first I don't have anything to compare it to, to know if how I feel is normal or if I would feel different with someone else. Please could someone advise me??
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