So critical of myself
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hi again. i am a week late. Last month I was a week early. i am really in a bad place mentally. I cringe at things i have done or said 30 years ago. Insomnia, joint pain, shaking hands, headache, bloating, I am really good at pretending that everything is ok.
i am so angry this is happening to me. and it is getting worse not better. i would be ok if I had the slightest bit of hope. i am not OK.
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paula20385 christine-Perim
Posted
Hi christine, I know what you mean, I don't sleep well jonts ache headaches and every thing else. I go and see a counsellor it has helped we talk about things in my past you don't realise how it can effect you , and now with hormones all over the place it can make things worse . I get angry too was going on fine with my life then 4 years ago it started i am in prei .
I just have too keep telling myself it will end ,it is hard I just hope one day I will wake up and this nightmare has ended
take care
Paula
sunaina1983 christine-Perim
Posted
Ur not alone mam
me too suffering alotðŸ˜
soo many symtoms everyday...sometimes its difficult to handle
Hang is there.
tk
notsure47790 christine-Perim
Posted
Right there with you in the court room- judging my every thought and action.
I am very critical of myself and I believe I deserve it:/ I hate how my brain and body are making me crazy and I hate the fact that I am not managing to control me. I have soooo many things I feel the need to improve and so clueless how to. I am into my 7th day of period now and almost angry why it cannot be just normal.
We truly are are toughest judges aren't we. If we judge ourselves so harshly what to expect from the world?!? Hope it somehow all hets better.
kimberly60059 christine-Perim
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I know how you feel. I have been peri for 8 years and I used to do the same thing. I tortured myself over mistakes I have made and opportunities I passed up. I think its because peri feels so final. Like theres no life after menopause. After a while I adjusted to the symptoms. Not to say that I was ok every day. I still have my bad days but I have some good too. Like right now my periods have stopped and I was in alot of pain but every day I feel just a little better. Oh Im sure I will still have some bad times, I mean feeling good every day would be too good to be true but my anxiety subsided years ago and hot flashes too. I dont know how long you have been peri but I just want to say that there is some hope that as you adjust to the symptoms and find your own way of dealing with them things will get better. I do hope you feel better soon.
kelly55079 christine-Perim
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YES.. I'm very critical about myself too. I feel like I can't do anything right-- I have a degree but feel like not one employer would take me especially now at this time--- my brain is just not 'here'. I feel my cooking has gone downhill-- I used to be able to multitask in the kitchen but lately not so much. I am angry that I feel frustrated, feeling tired mostly, with headaches right before my period and then the aniexty that I have. I feel like I need someone to take care of me.. You are defiantly not alone.