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I am so fed up with fighting a losing battle I'm sick of it can't cope anymore I've tried and tried for years not only struggling with my mental illness but all the extra stresses that life brings...I'm pathetic and can't deal with it!!! Sorry just feeling sorry for myself but some could argue that I have many reasons to! I just wish I was a better and stronger person to deal with it all but I'm not !
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yasmine333 dondons
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I hate that you're feeling like this as I honestly feel the exact same way. You're bound to be fed up it's tiring fighting every single day especially when you can't see a light at the end of the tunnel. You're not pathetic at all that's just how this illness makes you feel it takes over everything & you're left feeling like you don't have control over anything but you do - it's your life & you deserve to give yourself the best no matter what. Keep fighting for you because you deserve to be happy x
kevin01347 dondons
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Dondons hang in there.... I was feeling what you are feeling just a couple of weeks ago before starting my meds. I got an almost immediate boost but still have my moments of negative thoughts, self loathing and feeling like I am not going to be able to beat this. I have found these forums are helpful... reading that others are experiencing the same thing (have experienced it) and have come out fine is what keeps me going. When I am worried, depressed or feeling lost, I post on a forum and thank God there are so many people out there willing to reassure me I'm not alone and I'm not the only person with these problems.... don't give up... explore things that will help you and hold on to them. I found meditation helps me relax (I never thought I'd be a meditator, until now) others tell me going for a walk is good. I'm still learning self compassion around not pushing myself when I don't feel good.
hypercat dondons
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Hi part of life is learning and growing and we all need to do that. You have to want to though and start looking outwards rather than inwards. Try thinking of one very small thing you would like in your life then start to plan how to get it. Starting off with very small things builds up your confidence and self esteem and you can then move on to bigger ones. But only you can do it - others can't do it for you. And you have to want to. Do you? Or would you rather wallow in how 'pathetic' you are etc. x
dondons hypercat
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You make it sound like I have a choice? Right now I have no choice and is probably impossible to find one small thing out of everything. And no ! I hate wallowing but when I've fought to much wallowing is kinda all I have! At least until it all comes to an end ! Xx
dondons
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Thank you for your concerns/replies, sorry I guess maybe was just a rant as I know myself and my illness by now, been through it a long long time, been on probably every meds possible, counselling/therapy, hospital stays, im awaiting a new therapy but I don't hold out much hope, I will give it a go If I'm still around but it's almost like it's just a waste of time, hope that will only bring me down more when it doesn't work! I know I sound pathetic and stupid and wallowing in self pity but I have sought help and accepted help, I've done everything I can even when I've felt it won't work, I still gave it all a try so no matter what everyone may think of me I know myself that I tried ! Xx