So fed up of feeling like this
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Started about a year ago panic attacks every day social phobia couldn't understand it at all ended up not being able to get out of bed. Saw neurologist who said I was having migraines but I knew it was something more than that and symptoms kept coming. Doctor referred me for cbt and she said I had health anxiety. I've since had ct scan negative and a eye referral and now have the jelly has come away from the back of my eyes which all scared me. I've never felt so down. A moved home 2 months ago and felt so much better but then it all came back! I don't no what to do. I take amitripdline at bedtime to help my head and I think it works. I have a past history domestic violence and ptsd and generalised anxiety. I just want it all to go away. I want the happy feeling back......
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Also, i will advise you to fight back to become normal again, I know its hard, continue with your therapy. We are all alone and as u said you want to be happy again means you have the will. Get out, take your life in your hands, do therapy or take medecins as advised by your doctor. Seek help , we have only one life, and it comes with struggles make sure we can live it!!
Start by little and one day when you will be OK you will look back and realise how strong you were. Best of luck.
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Me too I had suffered from violence as a child and life has always been like a fight so far.
Wish you good health, keep in touch via msg
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You're going to feel like this for a while. It takes time to work through and break through depression and anxiety.
Amitriptyline might not be the best anti-depressant for you. I believe it's worth you going back to the doctor and discussing alternatives.
Please believe in yourself - it was brave of you to leave the violent relationship and no wonder you have PTSD.
Of course you want the happy feeling back, oh, I remember the BAD feeling so well and I never believed things would improve, but they did. You have support from us right here so keep in touch. Love Tess
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Ended up in psychiatric hospital with major depression. 2nd husband divorced me and banned me from seeing the four children.
Spent two and a half years in mental hospital. Beyond awful. Was given supported accommodation for a while - house mate (female) used to beat me up. Took overdose. Recovered from overdose. Back into mental hospital.
Woke up on April 2nd 2000 in the hospital and felt totally better. Older son had been praying for me constantly. Went and told staff I was cured and would they kindly find me somewhere to live...........staff laughed their heads off............eventually allowed me out...........discovered I WAS cured. Flat found for me - miraculously round the corner where ex and the four kids were living. Had been addicted to valium for years. Met new husband. Moved into new Very Small Flat. Next day, older son arrived on doorstep with guitar on his back, asking to move in. Day after, older daughter did same, but did not have guitar. Two weeks later, son's girlfriend and daughter's girlfriend moved in. No room to move.
Got back into nursing career. Saved money. moved into bigger place.
Younger children now able to visit and stay overnight as much more room.
I might have missed out a few things but that's the basic story.
Moral: prayer does get answered.
Other moral: depression does go away
End Note - still addicted to valium but now having treatment and on tapering dose. No longer employed. Husband and self happy. Children happy. Nobody perfect but close as possible. N.B. Husband alcoholic but not aggresive. He is working to get off the booze, too.
If I got through all that, you can get through whatever started you off, if you see what I mean. Truly wishing you all the best and that you will push through the sadness and be happy again. Please stay in touch. Love Tess
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Your so much stronger than u think u r!
I'll remember your story.
Stay positive
My childhood was awful violent father mother carried knife to protect her self from him I would wet my self every day.
We moved away from him when I was 12
I then turned to hard drugs by 14
Was put in children's homes, family didn't want to no me.
Then met boy at 16 who eventually became violent towards me for the next 13 years left him eventually where he would still come and kick my front door in with our children watching ended in court. Then years go by n met another man I actually trusted got pregnant n he left me for his ex and got her pregnant he then came back to me and I've not been the same ever since.
My story in short as well , nothing compared to yours. But still affected me in the same way xx
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Love to you.