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I have been having sore throat and most recently a dry non persistent cough that comes on intermittently., and it comes on usually in the evening and at night, and sometimes it wakes me up. which is a bit scary. Not to mention I've had ongoing shortness of breath issues which started very gradually a few years ago, I was 40 at that point. In addition to that, I have constant pain in my left arm as though I've pulled a muscle or have been lifiting weights incorrectly. Most recently, I have pretty much experienced panic attacks all day everyday for a month - so this includes the shakes and chest tightness. Then the sensation of a belt tightening around my diaphragm felt all day which prevents me from eating the smallest bit of food.
I have had check ups before the covid crisis including a chest scan/blood work and everything always comes back as normal.
What is the most significant and scary symptom which my doctors don't seem to be helpful with is that I get air hunger like my organs are being squashed and my heart is about to stop when I try to sleep on either side, so I'm left with sleeping on my back to the point that due to not being able to change position, I've perpetual pain and aches all over. I really don't get any sleep any more.
I'm so fed up, and there have been days where I just wish I wasn't alive. I know it's depressing but I don't know how to live with this any more. Most days I'm going to my room away from my partner and step-kids to cry my eyes out.
I'm only 42 and this isn't the lie I envisaged. I know that these symptoms may mostly be peri menopause, but a part o me thinks could be dying of something sinister, or I have contracted COVID-19.
I'm at my wits end. I can't cope and feel as though I'm living in the twilight zone. Anybody in the same boat,? I don't want to be alone in this and I just feel so empty and invisible and fed up.
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