So scared I have a brain tumor.. too many symptoms

I'm 34 male, I have a history of anxiety and constantly thinking I have HIV or other STDs. But last Summer I felt so great, I was exercising and eating right and lost about 35 lbs naturally, I felt in the best mental health of my whole life.

Unfortunately In January I actually finally did catch Chlamydia, so it got me super scared about my health again. So a couple of weeks ago I got scared about a rash I had on my ankle. So worried it was herpes or HIV rash (been tested for both things since and am negative). I was also having prostate pain again even though my Chlamydia was treated and gone, and I had felt normal for a couple of weeks. I got myself so worked up over my health again like I used to. Last Tuesday while at the Dr. I had pretty much a breakdown and was crying in my Drs office while talking to him. He told me that I'm just tearing myself apart.

Later on that evening I was sitting in the waiting room, and my left leg started feeling like it was going to sleep. But when I walked and moved it it would not stop. It felt like that the rest of the night and really tight. The next day I tried to ignore it but my leg felt so tight and almost like pins and needles all the time. But constantly just my left leg below the knee. I tried to ignore it and go for a walk outside. After my walk both of my feet were just vibrating and tingling, it was horrible. Reading I see that this kind of neuropathy on one side of the body is a brain tumor symptom. And now today the feelings were completely gone until about an hour ago, it started doing it again in my left leg only, but not as bad as before.

Also, when I try to sleep at night, I sometimes jerk. Now, this has been happening off and on since around last fall, but I didn't think much of it. But this past week it has been happening way worse. It's not like that feeling of falling that you get right before you drift off to sleep. It's just while I'm laying there with my eyes closed trying to sleep and thinking, I get a twitch in some part of my body and can kind of feel it in my brain. It's become way worse in the past week. I see online that this hypnic jerk is a brain tumor symptom...

I have also felt light headed for over two weeks now. My Dr had given me Buspar to try to help my anxiety but I woke up light headed after taking it. I only took Buspar for 3 or 4 days and haven't taken any in over a week and a half. I thought that light headed feeling was from the medication but it hasnt went away at all and I keep feeling like there is something in my head actually there. I am light headed from the minute I wake up so it's not like I have anxiety while sleeping causing it.

Something else has started that I have had before. I feel shaky all over whenever I move.I dont get shaky when I am still, but whenever I move my joints they tremble. It's especially in my wrists. If I move my wrists back and forth with any sort of resistance, I get what I see are intention tremors. I feel this in my shoulders, knees and elbows as well. I have had those symptoms before back in 2012 and it went away eventually. But that worries me it's MS and my anxiety attack gave me an MS flare up.

Another thing that makes me scared, sometimes I feel like Im smelling some sort of smoke smell, or musty odor. It happens mostly on an exhale really. I actually first noticed this almost 2 years ago in my old apartment, so I know it's not just something in my house here. I seen that weird scents are a sign of a brain tumor but at the time I didnt give it much thought and eventually stopped thinking about it or noticing it, or it went away I dont know. But that scent, or actually a little different one, is back now and I'm smelling it all the time.

When I wake up in the middle of the night sometimes, I feel like my arms and legs have fallen asleep. I"m also afraid that I may have had a seizure a couple of years ago. I kind of got up too fast and felt disoriented for about 10 seconds but I didnt lose my footing or fall over or anything. I felt confused for just a split second but then I felt completely ok right afterwards.

but all of this has me thinking that I have had a brain tumor for years due to the past symptoms  and its finally started to manifest itself with the neuropathy, jerking and light headedness. I havent been eating as much as normal but I have still eaten some every day, but Ive lost about 13 lbs in the last week and a half. 

I'm almost worried I had a stroke or something at the Drs office last tuesday that's caused this numbness and tingling in my left leg. But I called back to my Dr and he won't order a CT scan or MRI on my brain after I explained all of my concerns to the nurse. He referred me to a neurologist but my appointment isnt until the end of May. I have drove myself crazy and sick worrying for just the last week there's no way I can make it until nearly June. I almost want to go to the ER and tell them I'm afraid I had a stroke and see if I can get a CT scan. But I'm afraid of knowing anyway. I feel like I already know I have a brain tumor but getting a scan will just confirm it and then I'll find out how long I have left to live. And I'm so scared to know that. I know that anxiety and depression are signs of a brain tumor and I have been so terrified this last week and a half all I can do is sit and cry and do nothing. I can't work, I can't watch TV or movies or read, nothing brings me happiness or distracts me from constantly thinking I'm about to die. I have too many symptoms.

I just wish that I was ok again like before and not so sure Im going to die soon. I want to live and enjoy things. It's baseball season and I love baseball, and I dont even care because I just sit and cry. I called in to work this week because I cant function long enough to do any work.

I know that anxiety causes you stress and worry but my symptoms are too numerous and real to all be anxiety. Im so scared.

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