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So tired

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amro13291
amro13291

im really so tired of kyself its as if i need a break from me, actually i really do need a break from these scary thoughts. Sp tired of waking up! going to work i hat, and faking a whole life smilin to ppl idont know. Injst feel like im a stranger in this world. I know no one including myself. But i found thisnsite and i really kove it its like a shelter i can relate to you ppl, cause you really kniw what i feel. 

You know I'm not lyin or jst sad, you know what depression is and you wont judge me. I thought of endin it, suiciding. I couldn't i wasnt scared its more of curious. a wat if it would get better situation. It gets dif. And smtimes better, but younreach this step where it doesn ,atter if its better or not you just dont wanna wake up and live it. Ik life is good but despite that you still pick not living. Suidice for me wpuldnt be the result of despair it would be a matter of indifference. ,aybe ive apathy, i really dont know.Its jst idont wanna go thru it anymore i need a break. To break outta the cycle. Thanks 4 reading 

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  • deborah93854
    deborah93854 amro13291

    Posted

    You sound v down. Have you been to yr GP ? If not, then you must go and seek advice. Medication and counselling really helps. This site helped me a great deal when i went through a bad time with depression. I hve been better for nearly 2 years. I'm on meds. I did go through hell and back when i first started taking the meds, it took 6-8 weeks for my body to adjust to them. Everybody is different. I feel great now. Go seek help if you hve not done so far.

    Good luck.

    D

    • amro13291
      amro13291 deborah93854

      Posted

      I'm on citalopram 20 mg. The only thing I didn't try is CBT. I didn't try it cause i think its a waste of time and money. Its like reading a positive thinking book, where thry try to portray how life is nice and how to focus on the bright sides and all these cliches. What rea helps is going for long walks with my ipod. It just releases the stress and makes me transcend its my form of meditation. Anyways thsnks a lot deborah. 

    • Aspinan
      Aspinan amro13291

      Posted

      Hi Amro, CBT is not like that at all it's a lot deeper so please don't dismiss it as it can help. 

      Keep going for those walks it's doing you good. Neil 

    • amro13291
      amro13291 Aspinan

      Posted

      Thanks bro, can you pls elucidate more about CBT.

      ya walks do help me a lot, they are  my breaks from my intrusive thoughts. 

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