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So up and down can anyone relate?

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gillian26312
gillian26312

hi,

ive made a few posts on here recently just really having a hard time.

i have been on 40mg citalopram for the last 7 years i felt well and thought i no longer needed such a high dose. i took half a tablet for around a week and a half.

during that week i was out and extermely drunk. a stupid thing happened (a bried stupid kiss with another man) which i stopped but i have been plagued with guilt over it and it seemed to spike my anxiety.

i have been married for 9 years and love my husband but there is no affection from him and im home alot alone with the kids. i have told him what happened as i couldnt bear the guilt and he was actually ok about it and i swore to him i would never sleep with anyone else etc (i am genuinely not interested in other men and have never ever even considered it)

i keep having all these intrusive thoughts around my kids which i dont unserstand and my husband now and they made me feel so terrible. some days i think i will get over this and then others i think i cant do it anymore.

ive been taking the 40mg for around 4 and a half weeks when will this all stop???? i am desperate to get back to my old self .

has anyone ever went through something similair?

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  • jan34534
    jan34534 gillian26312

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    you told your husband about it so you were being honest. That’s all you can really do. It’s over and done with. You’re not getting affection in your marriage which can also increase your anxiety and longing for affection. Anxiety produces unwanted intrusive thoughts so that’s most likely what’s going on. Is there anyway the two of you can get some counseling? It’s sad that there’s no affection in your marriage. I hope the two of you can get some support for your sake and also the children’s sakes. I if you and your husband strengthen your relationships, it would benefit the entire family especially the children. They need to have the feeling of family security. Forget all the mistakes you feel that you have made and just move forward from here. You and your husband can take some positive proactive steps to strengthen your marriage. Take care

    • gillian26312
      gillian26312 jan34534

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      thanks so much ive told him how i am feeling and been in tears. he just seems to act like nothing is wrong and when i say anything about what i feel is lacking from his side he always has an answer to make out he is how a husband should be. i will suggest counselling and see what he says xxx

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