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Hi im 27 and I've been dealing with social anxiety, depression and few other mental illnesses. I'm feeling very sad and alone. I grew up in an mentality and physically abusive household. I was the outsider in my family. But as I got older I still have no family support. A when I try my father tries to take over my life and say mean things to make me feel bad about myself. I think he does because he knows he will get to me. It's hurtful because I need the support of living family members. Except my husband who I have lived with since 17 yes. He travels and can be gone months at a time. We only speak 1 maybe 2 times at night. When he's home we are so good with eachother but when he's gone my anxiety is worse then ever. I can't sleep I feel paranoid. I have dreams of spiders every night that constantly wakes me up. I'm a full time student I'm the nicest person I like to help everyone. I try to make friends at school or anywhere I go but I just feel there is somthing wrong with me. I feel stupid when I talk as I can't put sentences together I feel my mouth is moving weird. I feel that's all wveryone is paying attention to me thinking I'm weird. I only get along with my children and niecewho is 9 yrs old. But I'm starting to wonder if my life will be lonely because I try to be a social person?
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