Social anxiety & angrophobia

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Hello everyone. I’m new here, and am still finding my ‘feet’ so to speak. I hope I might be able to get some useful advice and suggestions – and I’d like to thank people in advance for any help.

 

I suffer from a form of social anxiety. I’m I totally inept when it comes to certain situations, due to what I can only describe as a mixture of powerful feelings, ranging from stress and panic to fear. Because of this, I’ve learnt to isolate myself – and I live a very abnormal lifestyle. Some examples: I’m 39, and have never had a partner (I just can’t talk to women in “that” way). I never partake in large groups. I had to take my university studies by distance learning.

 

But this social anxiety manifests itself in one extreme way: I suffer from angrophobia in relation to ‘authority’. I cannot cope or deal with anyone, or any organisation, that seemingly has authority over me. And, at worst, I feel that my anger will burst out – as outrage – if ever I am forced into such a situation. So I have always purposefully avoided any authority.

 

Because of this, I am unable to partake in the most normal of things. For example, I can’t attend job interviews, so I’ve never got a proper job. I don’t have a bank account. I am unable to claim many of the benefits that I’m otherwise entitled to.

 

Only once – very briefly – did I raise this with my GP. He sought to arrange for me to have mental health counselling. But, again, I just couldn’t stand to partake in such a process so I ended it.

 

This anxiety disorder has, in many ways, ruined my life. To make matters worse, I’m suffering from depression and certain physical ailments (neuropathic pain, and the side-effects of tramadol). About 3 years ago I was suicidal. Yet, for a while, things in my life seemed to improve. But lately things have taken a turn for the worse. I thought I’d express my feelings on this site.

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    Hi Also suffer with the same as soon as I wake I have a feeling of dread dizzy shakey sick I cannot go out and face people I feel totally isolated it's not good ive started on sertraline and diazapam when needed but I'm having them every day can you not get a home visit as u need meds to function I really feel for you this is making me feel so ill so goodness knows how it's making you feel buzz me back if you want to chat
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    I can relate to what you are going through and it is very difficult but you can learn to change your thoughts to over come it. Do you like the way your life is at the moment ? What do you want to happen? You can defiantly get better with changing patterns of your thoughts do u think your thoughts are realistic / rational ? Could you think differently ? X Louise 
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    hi simon anxiety disorder are worst you loose your confidence;happiness and you don't wish to do anything we all research on anxiety but when it triggers we feel helpless I hope it will go
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    hi simon anxiety disorder are worst you loose your confidence;happiness and you don't wish to do anything we all research on anxiety but when it triggers we feel helpless I hope it will go
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    This is just like me, I feel the same.

    I feel like whenever I have to go out I can't. I'd take staying in over anything else in the world. I feel like I'm always being watched and targeted. I hate it.

    But for me, I do encourage you to go back to your GP, explain what happened last time and go to the counselling, it might be a blessing in desguise, just go, you can do it my friend.

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      Hi - thanks for your comments. I've managed to see my GP again, and (although it was a very difficult session for me) it went okay. I'm on more meds - this time for anxiety (pregabalin), and arrangements are going to be made for me to see a mental health specialist.

       

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