Social anxiety is ruining my life
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Ive recently qualified in a healthcare role which i spent 4 years working towards and started my first qualified job a month ago. I have really bad social anxiety which has caused me to freeze up every time i do something and as a result havent used my initiative or settled into the role at all.
I worked as a support worker for a while and was confident at the job so my social anxiety wasnt an issue at all and i was good at my job. But when im nervous about something my social anxiety kicks into overdrive and i literally hate myself.
People have started to notice and i think my superviser spoke to my manager about me today. He also said that our student seems to be bossing me about a lot as if hinting to assert myself but i just cant. I get paranoid everyones talking about me and laughing at me and i analyse everything ive done or said that day and its torture. Im getting to my wits end with it and am having a lot more suicidal thoughts than i have for a long time.
I just wondered if anyone has any tips or positive stories to give me some hope for the future 
Ive tried cbt multiple times btw but i think my beliefs are too deep rooted for this as 99% of my thoughts are negative thoughts about myself and its too much to challenge!
Thanks for reading xx
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lisalisa67 absjbs
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I take it from time to time but my problems are more to do with my thoughts..like I'll think I'm useless, clumsy etc and that will in turn make me useless and clumsy 😔
lisalisa67 absjbs
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There is no medication to raise you self esteem. That should pick up as the social anxiety lessens. Therapy in conjunction with any meds is very useful. No person on this Earth is useless. Thats a society labeled garbage thing. No one is useless. This is all an adventure, a journey it isnt much if anything else. I never seen a commandment that shall be a prudent citizen and follow all persins rules.hahahaha. Nope. You have a guft within you, everyone does and in time when you manage the anxiety it will rise within you. Dont be so critical of yourself. It ruins the journey and removes joy. Just be you. Your thoughts are from your past and hiwever yiu have processed your enviornemnt and what it "expects" from you..similiar to anxiety rules. Therapy can help you retrain yourself. Love yourself as is always. This is your journey, no one elses.
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