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Where do I begin? It seems like every time I turn around I have a different or new set of symptoms. One day I will be fine, then the next, I feel like I can't even make it through the day. My heart palpitates, which scares me half to death. I will just be sitting around and get light headed for no reason. I feel like I can't eat anything because of the bloating and weight gain right around my middle. I will be happy one minute, then all out of the blue my mood will change and I will get irritated or cry over nothing. I have major panic and anxiety every time a new symptom sets in. I wake up in the middle of the night burning up, and pull my gown up around my neck and sit in front of the fan until I start to cool down enough to try and go back to sleep. I don't sleep well either. It seems like I am awake more of the night than asleep. I don't want to go anywhere because I feel so bad much of the time. Usually though, after I make myself get dressed and go anyway, I feel better. It's just making myself get the will to go. I'm 53 and feel like I am about 80 at times. I haven't had a full period in months. Month before last, I spotted for about 24 days; Last month I didn't have a period, and this month I just spotted for about 2 days and that was it. I actually felt better when I had a period. There isn't really anyone to talk to about all of this, because I don't want to bring my family down with a bunch of complaining. I actually went to see a psychiatrist because of the panic and anxiety and she said I had care giver's stress. The real stress came when I had to pay her $350.00 a session, and I knew that wasn't what was wrong with me. Needless to say, she put me on some medication for my nerves that made me feel worse, so I quit taking it. It seems like the only relief I get at times is coming here and reading all of your posts and knowing that I am not alone in all of this. Who knew Peri could alter a woman's life to the point she feels like she isn't even living. I will just wait around for that light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you all for being such an encouragement to me and helping me through this rough patch.
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