Started citalopram
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After a relationship break up 3 months ago I've slowly slipped in to a severe depression.
I wake up feeling beyond low and filled with dispair and spend most mornings crying for 2-3 hours.
I have no motivation to do anything and have to force myself to do simple tasks.
I'm still dealing with the heartbreak from the relationship ending but on top of this no find no joy or even relief in anything I do.
Everything reminds me of my ex and our time together and it's debilitating, I'm avoiding simple things like going to the shops or taking a walk as I just feel so sad and the thoughts won't go away.
I have never felt this low in my life.
I was prescribed sertraline last month but after 2 attempts to take it gave up after 2 days each time as the side effects were so bad And I have a young child to look after and even the sound of someone's voice was hurting my brain, I felt so spaced out I couldn't get off the couch and was shaking non stop.
I went back to my gp and have been given citalopram on a low dose of 10mg I've taken it for 2 days so far and have had no noticeable side effects which I'm happy about.
I guess I'm just looking for some support and for someone to tell me that this feeling will get better and the antidepressants will help as I'm not sure how much longer I can go on feeling this way.
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nigel45109 Losty82230
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mike07300 Losty82230
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Your on the right track now though taking a good medication, hang on In, I’m sure life will look better In a few weeks & now you have us on this site for extra support, good luck.👍
will20275 Losty82230
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Losty,
Hang in there. I’m on 10mg citalopram for 17 weeks. It’s really helped me. I don’t stress anymore which is fabulous.
It’s just the crazy side effects I’ve had. They mostly have dissipated except for teeth pain. 😬😬😬😬😬
Keep us posted how you do and their is a forum just for this drug. It helped me a lot to get through the roller coaster ride over the past 4 months.
Will😎
Losty82230
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Thanks everyone,
Just really hoping that something lifts soon as life just feels pointless at the moment.
I'm not sure why this break up has hit me so hard and caused such a downwards spiral as it's one of many in my life none of which caused me this type of reaction.
I want to go out and enjoy life but everyday wake up feeling so low and just cry, everything feels so difficult and pointless.
I feel so guilty as I have a child who I should be taking out and doing things with but I feel like I can't.
The strange thing is by the evening I always feel a bit better and think about all the things I could do the next day, but then the next day comes and it's back to square one.
Paula2019 Losty82230
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Paula2019 Losty82230
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Losty82230 Paula2019
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Thanks I've just taken my 4th tablet.
Yesterday was a really bad day for me and I cried most of the day.
Today I've managed to hold back the tears for the most part and got out the house to run some simple errands and visit my mum.
There's just this constant feeling of despair in my head though and nothing seems to shift it or distract me from it
Paula2019 Losty82230
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will20275 Losty82230
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Losty,
Hang in there. Do you take your pill in the morning or evening? Remember it takes time for this med to adjust to your body, I’m in my 18th week and I’m still adjusting. Trust me it gets better.
Will😎
Losty82230
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Hi I've been advised to take me pill in the evening at the moment so I sleep through and side effects and it seems to be ok as I've not really had any physical side effects except tiredness a couple hours after taking it.
This morning I did wake up feeling very sick but I think this is due to the fact I have to appetite so I'm eating very little.
The last couple days have been really bad depression wise, I just feel so low and couldn't get out of bed until the afternoon today. It took me 2 hours just to have a shower and get dressed.
I did make it outside for a bit earlier and feel a slight bit better but finding motivation to do anything is so hard for me I really want these to work for me but know it's going to be a while yet it's just really hard getting through everyday at the moment and I feel I'm getting worse.
My depression does seem to lift in the evening for some reason, I think that's due to the fact I don't feel any pressure to go anywhere or do anything and can just relax and goto bed, but then the next day it's back full force and I feel like I'm living in a nightmare.
Losty82230
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Update
Well I've been on this for 14 days now
7 days 10mg then upped to 20mg for 7 days.
I've not had too many side effects, I'm more thirsty I've noticed and my sleep isn't too great but wasn't before so not sure if that's a side effect or not.
Mornings are still really bad for me and I don't want to get out of bed but also can't fall back a sleep so lie there for a good couple hours trying to find motivation to get up.
The first few hours of the morning I'm still very tearful but seem to get better as the day goes on.
I still don't want to do much but in comparison to last week where I felt suicidal for most of the day and cried all day most days there has been an improvement where I'm crying less and don't feel as hopeless I can see a light at the end of all this now.
I'm able to have conversations with my family again and feel interested in what is being said compared to the weeks before when I just had a constant pit in my stomach and feeling of dread and hopelessness and cared about nothing.
I'm hoping things continue in this direction and my motivation and passion to want to do more will come back over the next few weeks.
nigel45109 Losty82230
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nigel45109 Losty82230
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will20275 Losty82230
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Hi losty,
I’m just finished my 19th week at 10mg. I had horrific side effects for 3 good months. I managed to work through it. I think Work helped me get through it. start a journal it helps to look back and see how well you progressed. Go for a walk to help with anxiety.
Will😎