Starting to give up!

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I have been on 40mg of Prozac they stopped working after 8months, Then put on Sertraline 100mg did nothing but give me the runs for 6months, and now on Cittalopram 20mg been on them 4wks and I feel so low, real negative thoughts even looked at ways to commit suicide, I'm 45 married with a very loving caring husband and a very supportive family but half the time I don't want to talk to anyone and I am so cold towards my husband but I can't give or do what I don't feel. I am so scared that I won't ever feel any different i don't get pleasure out of anything including being around my grandchildren and that makes me feel even worse. I haven't been in work for 4wks I just sit with my dogs and stare into space not wanting to go out or speak to anyone. I have no motivation at all. I just don't know what to do next but I can't go through life feeling so worthless and useless and I feel I'm letting everyone down.

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    Hi Karen

    Some meds do make you feel worse before they get better but I really think you should go back to your doctors and let them know how you are feeling as maybe you need to change your meds! Especially as you are having them thoughts you really need to be open and honest to people on how you are feeling. Do you have a friend you can talk to? I know you don't feel like going out but maybe she can pop over as sitting on yor own will make you worse as you will be sitting thinking too much! Try to force yourself out for some fresh air. Have you tried counselling?

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      Hi Kim, I have been very open with my doctor I am seeing her every two weeks at the moment and she gave me a list of phone numbers if I got to bad again. I have only got a few people I would call real friends but I have lost touch with them over time and to be honest I'm not in the mood for talking. And I have had counselling and it did nothing but the doctor thinks it is clinical depression as nothing set it off. 

      Thank you for replying x

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    Hi karen,

    Unfortunately thats the way citalopram works at the start, its hellish but not as bad as what others have been in my experience!

    Take things easy but thing will gradually get better and i mean alot better!

    Ive been on citalopram for 8 years and stupidly came off them, currently im on my 2nd weeks and have all the symptoms you describe... Due to experience i know this passes but is still so hard, its great you have a understanding husband as thats important.

    My advice is to stick with it, even if you dnt have motivation, desire, hope like me then have some dedication in getting through the start but i promise there is calm after the storm in this instance.

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      4 weeks is still early for citalopram karen... They say depending on the person the amount of time it takes to work, you could ask your doctor from something to help with side effects in the meantime.... I was prescribed propanalol a beta blocker as my anxiety is through the roof
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      Sorry I forgot to put that I have been on 80mg Propranolol for over a year but that's for Migraines. You would think I would be chillaxed as my grandson says. 
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      Just a thought...your body has gone through two med changes so you will be experiencing not only start up side effects but withdrawals too. I was on sertraline for 5 weeks and felt like arse ...straight swapped to citalopram... about five weeks ago...had some good days and some crap but better than on the sertraline... I just have to keep remains myself that my body's gone through a lot! Best of luck to you
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      Just a thought...your body has gone through two med changes so you will be experiencing not only start up side effects but withdrawals too. I was on sertraline for 5 weeks and felt like arse ...straight swapped to citalopram... about five weeks ago...had some good days and some crap but better than on the sertraline... I just have to keep remind myself that my body's gone through a lot! Best of luck to you
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    Karen ..if you get no pleasure from your grandkids  or from your husband there is something more seriously  wrong than your GP is seeing..ask to see a specialist ..you deserve more out of life ...and so does your family ...the Meds you have taken should at least have given you a window of hope..Citalopram is great for some people ,but I feel you need a consultants opinion ..you should not be thinking suicide...and if you are you need specialist help ..NOT from a GP 

    keep me posted ...I feel for you 

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      Im depressed out my mind but that made me chuckle, no pleasure from your husband!

      But in all seriousness, everytime ive started back up on citalopram ive had suicide thoughts etc than few month later the tablets have worked wonders.

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      Joe ..I'm glad I made you smile and I'm glad the tablets have worked for you..I do however think that Karen's problems seem to need more help than an overworked GP can give.

      BTW ..I was actually sticking up for the husband...so often the spouse gets forgotten when the partner is depressive...I'm sure Karen and her husband wish they could re gain the pleasures they once had ..life can be so cruel 

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