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Still feel miles away

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tina89895
tina89895

After a difficult week, completed yet some more paper work yesterday. Kept myself shut away in the house didn't see or talk to anyone, didn't mind as couldn't be bothered anyway. Slept not too bad last night, still waking up dreaming. Still feel vacant, not really here my head feels as if its miles away. Made myself go out in the sunshine and snow for a walk thought it might help. Just wandered along as if in a trance. Came home, had a quick chat and cuddle with my grandchildren as they were on their way out got in the house and cried. Just feel like eating, drinking and going to sleep for ever. Can't seem to kick myself out of this...

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  • doloroso
    doloroso tina89895

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    Tina, I don't know your story, the reasons for your depression. I suffered depression through grief and it was THE MOST awful time of my life. It's difficult to advise as we all have different ways of coping with depression. All I can say is when I'm feeling low thinking of the loss of my darling Sister at the age of 50 (cancer sufferer for 7 years) some 11 years ago now and then the subsequent loss of Dad then Mum, I listen to "my" music!! HAPPY music" I'm a 50s baby so all that great music of the time really cheers me. A good tennis racket and a bash at some cushions might help you too! Get whatever is inside OUTSIDE! Scream in a field if you can. Crying is a way of letting out whatever is inside. If you couldn't cry you would feel so much worse believe me. As I stated earlier, I don't know what's troubling you but I know WHATEVER it is it WILL pass Tina. We hit rock bottom. As you know, once you've hit rock bottom there's no other place to go but UPWARDS!!! Slowly. slowly UPWARDS! We see NO  light at the end of the tunnel. Believe me there IS light at the end of the tunnel. Keep a notepad with how you are feeling. Record ALL of your feelings. REMEMBER the GOOD things in your life - you mentioned your grandchildren! WRITE that down! It will improve believe me. I do wish you more serenity Tina. Hugs xxx
    • tina89895
      tina89895 doloroso

      Posted

      I just wish the light would even twinkle a little bit. I lost my husband in july. I just seem to be going down and down again, I've had some good days but the bad ones just seem to take over. I just want it all to stop....I try and be positvie and do positive things but it all falls down again. 
  • doloroso
    doloroso tina89895

    Posted

    Your pain is YOUR pain and only yours Tina. I do sympathize deeply. Horrible, horrible place to be right now.Alone and angry. It's all so fresh too. They say "time heals", Well in a way it does. You'll see that ahead of you (I cannot say when) there will be good times when you don't think about your loss as much. DO NOT FEEL GUILTY! The healing process just takes over the wretchedness you have in your soul right now. Do you have any real close friends? My two darling bosom friends were my rock (and still are)! Have known them more than 40yrs now.Sometimes it's easier to open up and breakdown with a close friend. There are so many stages of grief and it will take you a while to feel yourself again. No words of mine can suffice I know to ease your pain - I wish they could, I really do Tina. I don't know how spiritual you are but I went twice to a Reiki healer. I opened up to her. I cried my heart out to her more than to anybody else. She did not judge me just listened and in a way consoled me. She was extremely professional - they all are. Perhaps you may feel at a later date that you would like to try Reiki. In the meantime, G-d bless you and I hope you'll find the strength to carry on. Be well. One other thing. It's important to nourish yourself. Make sure you do. x
  • Guest
    Guest tina89895

    Posted

    i feel like im miles away to its a horrible feeling almost like your spaced out constantly or like your in a bubble ive been on citalopram for anxiety and that has seemed to space me out a bit
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