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About 3-4 weeks ago I had this quite mild infection on my penis - red tip, burning sensation when peeing and after 2 or 3 days a few small blisters appeared (4 single blisters to be exact) on the head. All in different areas, mostly on the inside of foreskin, at the base of the head when I pull the foreskin down.
I went to my GP and she said it could be chlamydia or gonorrhoea! There was some discharge from the tip, too, not very much I thought, but the GP noticed it. She took my urine smaple and told me to sign up to my local GUM clinic because I'd never gone there before and I needed full STI tests, etc.
I got an appointment a few days later (about 10 days after the infection started) and the blisters and pain while urinating went away on the very day of my GUM clinic appointment!!! the dr said that chlamydia/gonorrhoea would not go away by itself so she thinks it's genital herpes. I thought I was gonna die. She took swabs from were my blisters were/had been, my mouth, and always from inside of my penis. Immediate results came back negative... They also took my blood and urine samples.
afterwards, on the same day, I rang my GP and asked about any results from my urine sample. They said the hospital had lost it and that I would have to come again and do it!!! I said no thanks, the GUM clinic have already got it...
So it will be 2 weeks tomorrow since my visit at the GUM clinic and I rang them today. They said there's backlog and it might take another week...
In the meantime I'm going absolutely crazy!!! every itch, every tingle, literally everything that a normal person would simply disregard I get a panick attack over, thinking I'm gonna die of an STI in a moment. Nobody told me for definite what it is, herpes test came back negative... I also met a lovely guy (im a guy too) and I'm afraid he might not like the fact that "I may or may not be infected" or what the hell is wrong with me if anything? I don't wanna infect him but my dr said I wouldn't if I don't have any blisters/symptoms.
I searched the web thirty million times looked at herpes/chlamydia/gonorrhoea, nothing really fits exactly. Herpes seems to be entire areas or multiple spots (like it's 20 spots in some pictures) whereas I had 4... and they weren't painful (just burning when I poured water over them). chlamydia/gonorrhoea it seem to fit my case but they aren't meant to disappear? or maybe it didn't disappear it's just gotten much better and I think I'm healthy now but i'm not?
Honestly I don't know what to think, I keep thinking that I don't have herpes, because the tests came back negative and it's a long-term disease without a cure so I think I would kill myself if i was properly diagnosed with it.
I dont know what to do about the lovely guy either... I can't tell him that "I MIGHT BE INFECTED" that'd just be weird. I don't wanna scare him away.
Every night I go to sleep i check my downstairs and look at it intensely and sometimes see a red area, or maybe this is what my penis has looked like all my life? I dont know anymore. I find myself crying every day or two, and it's been like that for nearly a month. When I don't cry, I barely stop myself from bursting into tears multiple times a day. It's only 1pm now and I have already cried once and "nearly cried" additional two times.
I really hope someone can answer this post with some advice on the whole thing. Waiting another week for the GUM clinic results is literally going to kill me!
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