Strange things happening

Hi everyone,

First of all please apologise my spelling. Unfortunately, English is not my primary language.

As the title says, indeed weird things are happening to me. I'm not even sure how to start this. It was last week on Thursday during work (it was around 14:00), when after being focused on some things at my desk for two hours or so, I got up to go and get myself some water. After 15-20 steps, I felt like I will collapse on the floor. I was perfectly conscious all the time but it felt like my legs and my arms were not listening to me anymore. And it was this horrible feeling of losing control over my body (like being about to pass out). I am suffering from diabetes for almost 30 years now (I'm 35). I thought that my glucose level was too low. Unfortunately, on that particular day I've managed to use the last test strip I had with me before this episode, so I couldn't say for sure. I ate a small cake and some fruits but after 20-30 minutes the symptoms were still there. At that moment I was already pretty freaked out because none of these symptoms were following the normal recovery after a hypoglycaemia. Of course, some paramedics were called. They have measured my blood pressure, they've done an ECG and they measured my glucose level. My glycaemia was found to be fine (8.something), my blood pressure was 138/95 (normally it stays somewhere at 140/70 and even lower than that), my heart rate was 109 (normally my HR is roughly 80).

According to the paramedics, the ECG was fine as well. At the peak of this episode I was very pale.

The next day everything was fine. I was thinking that most probably I needed some rest and to drink some more fluids. On Saturday, this episode was history already.

On Sunday we've decided to visit Liverpool. This is roughly 120 miles away from where we live. We've started from home in the morning. After parking the car there somewhere close to some museums, we've begun our tour through the city. Somewhere around noon, a pretty powerful chest pain hit me. It was in the heart area. I could say it was sharp to some extend and it was radiating. The same symptoms like last time were present as well but even more powerful. I turned very pale. My legs and my arms were shacking. I felt like I was about to pass out. My breathing was heavy. I was feeling tingles in my arms, neck and my lips. In the end, I've end up at the emergency room. Nothing in particular was found. They even took blood samples at 3 and 6 hours after this episode in order to see if they can find any trace of that particular marker specific to a heart attack.

After this second episode, I feel like I have never fully recovered. That state is continuously prowling. There is a constant mental fight to keep it away. Since Sunday, I feel continuously exhausted.

Pragmatically speaking, what I could observe by now is that if I lay down in bed I am good. Once I wake up from bed, after a while of standing up and moving around, first thing I observe is a mild heart pain (or a least it feels in that area). This pain is accompanied by a weird pressure in that area, like something is squeezing my heart somehow. Many times the squeezing appears first.

Sometimes this whole thing goes also in my torso. In short time (but not necessary in this order), I'm starting to feel a bit dizzy. If I'm not fighting with this, soon I end up very close to what happened two times by now.

Regarding my heart, sometimes I'm experiencing extra systoles and tachycardia (especially in the night just before sleep). An interesting fact is that each time when such an incident happened, I was feeling very bloated and with an urge to use the toilet. Most probably because of my diabetes, my gut is not working as it should. This is happening for many years now. Because of this sometimes I'm using laxatives and just before the first incident, for almost a week, every evening I've ingested one chewable cube made up from fig and Senna leaves.

As an occupation, I'm a software engineer. We have relocate, me and my wife, to the UK one year and a half ago. During this time, our lives turned a bit upside down. There is a lot of stress involved every day. There is almost no communication and social life at all. On top of this, the weather doesn't help at all either. As a person, I am a pretty straight forward one. I am driven by reason and common sense. There was no moment just before the first two episodes when to feel any panic or anxiety. I'm not afraid of open or small spaces. I'm not afraid of people in general. I couldn't say I'm not afraid of anything but in general I thing about me as being pretty stable emotionally.

I've decided to write this on the "Anxiety Disorders" group because I really hope physically there is nothing wrong with me. I had a chat with one of the GPs at my surgery and they decided to put me forward for some additional heart checks. At the moment, I feel like my life is gone and this has happened in just one week. I've took some days off to rest at home. At the moment, most of my concerns on a daily basis are things like: make sure you will not die during taking a s*t or make sure you had a shower done because you do not know exactly when you need to call the ambulance. I know I'm panicking more than necessary, but since there were no further tests done yet, I have no clue what is the cause for what is happening to me.

I would greatly appreciate any piece of advice from anyone. Thank you so much people!

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