Struggling, any advice
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Hi
This is my first post and Im hoping for some advice please.
I had a breakdown in November and have been signed off work since then. i was prescribed 20mg citalopram the beginning of December which i felt did help in that after a few weeks i was able to leave the house and was having less panic attacks but i was still feeling very fragile and low. i spoke to my doctor last week who suggested we raise the dose to 40mg which ive been taking for just over a week but this week its like ive gone backwards, i dont want to leave my bed let alone my house, im crying, panicking and feeling really low. ive also got swollen glands under one of my arms and keep convincing myself this means i have a terrible illness. im just not functioning well at all. how long would you expect for the 40mg to make a difference? i can't carry on like this. i have 2 kids who need me and i feel guilty that they arent getting the mum they deserve. thank you for reading
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LFS Yogi10
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hi so sorry to hear you are struggling I know how awful it is. i started on cit in july last year and its honestly been such a long journey and i am only starting to feel better now. i started on 10 then 15 then 20 then 25 then 30. some people it seems to work fast but for most people its a slow recovery. months not weeks like the doctors tell you. why did the doctor put you straight up to 40? even when i went to 25 then 30 i felt a big difference from 20 with no side effects. going to 40 is such a big jump it will take time to adjust. i have just had covid and it has pushed me back a bit. i also have two young kids so i know how hard it is and when at my worst i found it hard to look after them alone. you will get through this and you are not alone! here anytime to chat. leigh xx
Yogi10 LFS
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thank you for your reply. i dont think my dr put any thought into what dose i am on. when i ring i get the feeling he would prefer it i just didnt ring. It feels like a long journey, ive been off work 4 months now and that worries me too. Thank you for listening and understanding. i hope you are doing ok
LFS Yogi10
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i know the feeling i spoke to my doctor yesterday and always feel they cant get off the phone fast enough! how are you feeling now? i was off at the start to for a bit then i went back and was off sonetimes due to setbacks. up until covid had been back for while but went back today again. it is a long slow journey but it will get easier over time. very hard with children as you feel so guilty.
Yogi10 LFS
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thank you for your message. i feel like the 40mg is leveling out a bit now and im feeling more able to function, i went into work for a visit this week and everyone was friendly. there's only a few people who know why im off. my manager talked about doing a few visits then a phased return which sounds like a good idea. i am doing better but its so hard and i would say now i feel more functional but still like everything is just hard and takes more energy than it should if you know what i mean. i do feel so guilty about not being the mum and want to be and my kids are quite anxious, my youngest particularly and i know that they pick up on things no matter how hard i put on an act they know something is not right. i feel an improvement since my last post though so trying to take each day at a time.
how are you?
LFS Yogi10
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aw that all sounds really positive. i still struggle with anxiety in the mornings but once im at work i do feel better. the more you avoid things the scarier they are but i still need to push myself to do it. its very hard to put on a brave face with children and also hard to get the rest you need to help with the recovery. at the same time you have no choice to get up and look after them which is good in a way as gives you a reason to get up. when my anxiety was at its worst i couldnt be alone with my anxiety luckily im over that now as it was horrible. the doctor said to wait 4 weeks since i got covid before deciding to increase so ill see how i feel next week. hope you continue to feel better.