Struggling to cope

 just remember Shane, that any symptoms related to anxiety cannot hurt you! They feel terrible and can be scary but that is all. 

 The fear of something bad happening, the breathlessness, and worry about the heart are all common symptoms of anxiety. I have had all of those in many more. 

 have you ever tried the audio meditations for anxiety on YouTube? I know you tried mindfulness. The meditations really calm me down and lower my heart rate so I feel more relaxed and can breathe easier. 

 when you have anxious thoughts like fear of something bad happening, immediately switch to concentrate on your breathing. Also, when you have a negative thought you may have learned this in mindfulness, but calmly acknowledge it  and then imagine it floating off into the sky and dissolving. If you react to a symptom with anxiety this will just increase your anxiety. 

 don't let fear and negativity take  you over. You are in control not that. it does not in anyway have to destroy your life! You have to be a fighter for yourself. Anxiety or originates in the brain and the key is to calm down the brain. 

 to do that, I do the meditations a couple times a day, I exercise to release the feel-good hormones from the brain and it calms me down, I try to stay active and socialize even though it's hard sometimes. But the worst thing we can do is sit and think and think .  I react to negative thoughts and physical symptoms with complete calmness  and they never get to the point of being horrible in fact sometimes they go away altogether. 

 your heart will not stop! Anxiety cannot cause that and your test came out normal. It may feel like that but it won't happen. 

 if you are ever having a panic attack you can search YouTube for panic attack emergency and they guide you through it. Several to choose from. 

 never give up and be relentless. You deserve a long happy Life with peace of mind. I do hope you feel better soon  and I do think that if you found the right counselor, it would really help you. Find one that specializes in anxiety and keep going even when you start to feel better. It's always better to have some support then to do this alone. 

I no exactly what your going through shame I'm exactly the same I was diagnosed of gad and emotional dysregulation in Feb 17 I've bin on fluoxetine for 7 weeks now and past few days I have been waking up to gushes of dizziness and severe feelings that my heart is going to stop it's very frightful and then it makes me anxious alday next day it's very tiring but everyone says it's common anxiety I really do hope we both get better soon as it's a very awful thing to be thinking and going through xxx

Thanks for your replies it's really encouraging to know that other people feel like this too although it is horrible to live with and I wouldn't wish it on.my worst enemy..

I used to enjoy my work which is physical and mental challenging and also I would travel 100''s of miles every weekend doing the hobby I love but since this started I don't do either

I fear going to work as I always have attacks that I can't breath and same with my hobbies. I struggle to drive the 3 miles to work let alone thinking about driving 100''s and being in the middle of no where for the weekend.

Up to now anxiety and panic has robbed me of 2 things I used to love in life