Stuck

Hi Carly, I have had great support off here including a few days when I didn't want to be here. Talk to people on here and tell us how you feel we'll try to help if you want us to.

Hi there are lots of people that feel that way get them self in a rut, is it because you are doing the same boring things most people do, get up the same time go to work ,normally struck in traffic that can be depressing, get up have dinner and then plunk down in front of the tv, and when you get to the weekend where you should enjoy you run out of things to do or it takes money to do it, you want to change it but do not know how, and like you said you wonder why you are here, it is great if you have a job you love and is rewarding, and great friends you can do stuff with after work or at weekends, or a great family, but a lot of people do not and they become lonely, people think its just old people that happens to, far from it, it affects all ages, i should know, i wont go into detail but in my 54yrs i have been through hell and back , i have illnesses i never thought i would get through but i did, i had a fabulous job which i lost through illness, and hardly any friends but you can turn your life around believe me i did if i can get through depression,anxiety, ibs ocd, eating orders, bdd, severe migraines, insomnia working on that one, i am sure you can get out of this rut, this forum is brilliant it helped me big time and it can help you just have to ask, lots of help and caring people , we are here

Hey Carly. Whatever life throws at you, no matter how hard it gets, you know you always have a second chance. You could take a one way train ticket to anywhere you want and live a new life, or you could just go for a week or two and try to figure out who you are and what you want in life. Committing the act of suicide is giving away that second chance. I always think about doing it, but I stop myself, put $10 in my savings and say this is for my new life. Even if it never happens I know I have an option. Feel free to say anything on here and we can try to support you, I understand how hard it is to be completely down and on the edge of taking your life. I'm sorry that life has thrown you a bad hand. It sucks. You don't deserve to be depressed. Can you tell us what's going on? Can you remember a time when you were happy? 

Aw Carly, why love? What is making you feel so sad? Talk. We'll try to help! People on here helped me, we will help you if you want.

I know how you feel. I am feeling the same right now. I think the weekends are worse when you get this way. Because you think of another week gone and what is gained? Then again the positive side is a new week is coming. I have made plans to do something different next week, I wonder if you might try organising something for yourself to look forward to, see if that helps you? Good luck.